The Undiscovered Country

Splash Fantastic All Over.

2007-12-26T13:17:00.000-08:00

Really?!? It's been a year since I posted on here . . . I used to have sooo much fun making these posts! I took a look around and not many still post on here. I will give it a shot and see what happens.

So my best present for Christmas?

I was sooo surprised! Mom wrapped it in one of those large cylindrical tins that you get popcorn in . . . Yeah, in my family we try to disguise our presents in ridiculous wrapping!

Here's to another day back at work . . . and home again in three days for New Years!

my eye

2006-06-15T20:32:00.000-07:00

Slogan

2006-03-15T10:39:00.000-08:00

When The Going Gets Tough,

The Tough Get Revolution.

Check out this website: http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi?

Put in a word and press the button and it will give you a slogan. . .
I used revolution per a conversation that I had with JW, Jess, and Arlene last week.
Thought it was amusing.

New Blog

2006-03-08T10:45:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure what I want to do with this site yet, but I have started a new one. I may play around with this one and see if changing it up a bit will encourage me to post here, but until then and for now, catch me here: http://www.xanga.com/jenni_ru

Finally, I'm Happy.

2006-02-07T14:40:00.000-08:00

Things that I am excited about:

Mom bought me a winter wetsuit
I bought me and Jess boogieboards
As soon as I buy my surfboard Julian is taking me out to the beach
Elisabeth is going to the winter retreat with us
Applebee's work is going great
I am applying for my second job

SURFING*FRIENDS*AND PAYING MY OWN BILLS

YEAH THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY!!

I was bored this morning

2006-01-29T08:20:00.000-08:00

and putting off getting ready for church. . .

You scored as Indiana Jones. Indiana Jones is an archaeologist/adventurer with an unquenchable love for danger and excitement. He travels the globe in search of historical relics. He loves travel, excitement, and a good archaeological discovery. He hates Nazis and snakes, perhaps to the same degree. He always brings along his trusty whip and fedora. He's tough, cool, and dedicated. He relies on both brains and brawn to get him out of trouble and into it.

Indiana Jones		71%
Captain Jack Sparrow		67%
The Amazing Spider-Man		67%
El Zorro		67%
Neo, the "One"		63%
Maximus		63%
Lara Croft		58%
James Bond, Agent 007		58%
Batman, the Dark Knight		58%
The Terminator		50%
William Wallace		38%

Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0
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Maybe that's why I have a relica of Indie's hat and why I dressed up as him for No Fear Night one year. . .

A Beautiful Day

2006-01-15T08:49:00.000-08:00

One of the best parts of my day was having lunch at Panera with Jess and then running off to the beach for about 45 minutes before going to work. It was a beautiful day. I love living in San Diego!!

We saw this guy with a "parasail" thingy and a skim board. He would catch the wind and then surf the whitewater. This was sooo cool. Jess and I wanted to try it but we didn't know how to Google the activity. The only name we could come up with was "skimboarding with help". So finally we walked up to the guy and asked him. The short sun bleached activist informed us that it is called kite-boarding. Awesome, someday this is what I want to be doing!

Back to Work. . .

2006-01-14T15:57:00.000-08:00

I'm off to go and earn my own money, again!!!

I don't know if I've ever been this excited to go back to work, but here I am.

Those of you who remember, you can catch me back at:

Relief

2006-01-11T08:02:00.000-08:00

Ok, I know my last post was so very vague, but a lot of you can make an educated guess as to what it was really about. Other than that I am not going to say anything else.

However, you will all be happy to know that despite how I felt before I finally went to bed I woke in a great mood. I actually got stuff done! Amazing. It's like a big weight was lifted from my life. Relief.

The best part of my day: Talking to three friends that I hadn't in a very long time.

*Elisabeth~God must have had me thinking about you since you just happened to move to LA last week. Can't wait to actually see you soon. Call you later today.

*Caitie-Lynn~I can't believe I haven't called you in two months! But I love you and thank you so much for being there for me even when at this time in our lives I should be being there for you! I miss you so much and I am so blessed to call you my bestfriend!!

*Ryan~It was so great to hear your voice again, I mean South African accents rock. You silly bloak! Thanks for inviting me over for tea. Hope we don't become strangers again, we should know each other all the time!

To all my other friends; I love you all and thank you for your love and support!

EOWYN'S CURSE

2006-01-10T05:28:00.000-08:00

"NO LEVEL OF LOGIC CAN MAKE HIM LOVE YOU."

"NO LEVEL OF LOGIC CAN STOP YOU FROM LOVING HIM."

This Morning

2005-12-29T08:11:00.000-08:00

Little Brother scared me with this:

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/video/bananaman

Part of my new tatoo. . .

2005-12-24T08:38:00.000-08:00

My new tatoo that I will eventually get is the pheonix and the martyr sysmbol. . .
The Phoenix Bird

A translation of Hans Christian Andersen's "Fugl Phønix"

by Jean Hersholt.

Beneath the tree of knowledge in the garden of paradise stood a rosebush. And here, in the first rose, a bird was born. His plumage was beautiful, his song glorious, and his flight was like the flashing of light. But when Eve plucked the fruit of the tree of knowledge, and she and Adam were driven from paradise, a spark fell from the flaming sword of the angel into the nest of the bird and set it afire. The bird perished in the flames, but from the red egg in the nest there flew a new bird, the only one of its kind, the one solitary phoenix bird. The legend tells us how he lives in Arabia and how every century he burns himself to death in his nest, but each time a new phoenix, the only one in the world, flies out from the red egg.
The bird darts about as swift as light, beautiful in color, glorious in song. When a mother sits beside her infant's cradle, he settles on the pillow and forms a glory with his wings about the head of the child. He flies through the room of contentment and brings sunshine into it, and he makes the violets on the humble cupboard smell sweet.
But the phoenix is not a bird of Arabia alone. In the glimmer of the northern lights he flies over the plains of Lapland and hops amid the yellow flowers in the short Greenland summer. Deep beneath the copper mountains of Falun, and in England's coal mines, he flies in the form of a powdered moth over the hymnbook resting in the hands of the pious miner. He floats down the sacred waters of the Ganges on a lotus leaf, and the eye of the Hindu maid brightens when she beholds him.

Phoenix bird! Don't you know him? The bird of paradise, the holy swan of song? He sat on the car of Thespis, like a chattering raven, flapping his black gutter-stained wings; the swan's red, sounding beak swept over the singing harp of Iceland; he sat on Shakespeare's shoulder, disguised as Odin's raven, and whispered, "Immortality!" into his ear; and at the minstrels' feast he fluttered through the halls of the Wartburg.
Phoenix bird! Don't you know him? He sang the Marseillaise to you, and you kissed the feather that fell from his wing; he came in the glory of paradise, and perhaps you turned away from him toward the sparrow that sat with gold tinsel on its wings.
The bird of paradise-renewed each century-born in flame, dying in flame! Your portrait in a frame of gold hangs in the halls of the rich, but you yourself often fly around lonely and misunderstood-a myth only: "The phoenix bird of Arabia."
When you were born in the garden of paradise, in its first rose, beneath the tree of knowledge, our Lord kissed you and gave you your true name-poetry!

Tell me which phoenix symbol you like best!

TRAVEL

2005-12-23T11:20:00.000-08:00

Crobarger packing must haves:
*a mother who wakes up her children at 8am when they just went to bed 4 hours ago to start packing when the plane doesn't leave until 8pm that night...12 hours of packing?!?!?
*a father who gets upset evertime there is one dish in the sink and spends 1/2 the day washing dishes...yea right, we do still have to eat...
*last minute laundry
*running around not being able to find the things you want to pack and know they were just there yesterday...

Events of the previous hour before leaving for the airport:
~mom gets angry because I took 1/2 the cat litter she bought that day for Gatsby and now there is not enough for her two cats
~dad runs to the vons to buy more cat litter
~aunt penny arrives to drive us to the airport
~dad calls mom to inform her that someone has just hit her car
~brent and i help load the luggage
~we all get into the car
~dad realizes he no longer has his wallet
~we all search everwhere for dad's wallet
~we drive back to the vons shopping center to look for said wallet
~dad finds it in the gutter on the street
~on the drive to the airport dad calls the insurance company

Events at the airport:
~mom, brent and i get onto the terminal for the wrong flight
~we wait outside the terminal for the correct flight
~i choke myself on the peppers from my piza
~brent trades seats with a guy on the plane to sit next to me
~a first class guest pays for everyone on the plane to have tv access
~brent and i watch Aquaman

~brent and i watch Johnny Quest

~brent and i watch Duck Dodgers

LATER, FINALLY, I CRAWL INTO BED WITH MY 7 YEAR OLD COUSIN, KAELAH-MARIE, AND ATTEMPT TO FALL ASLEEP. . .

Merry Christmas

2005-12-21T15:42:00.000-08:00

Tonight I'm off to Denver with the family to go see more family. I will attempt to post while I'm gone but there will be 4-5 computor hogs living together for nine days and I'm not sure how many computors we will have. Anyway, pray for a safe trip and beyond that just pray, 'cause my life is getting a little too full of drama, some of my own making and some that just is. Maybe these nine days away will help me get some more focus and clarity. How much can you see of the world from the viewpoint of the mile high city?!?!?!?!?!

LOSE/LOSE SITUATION

2005-12-16T22:51:00.000-08:00

IT'S OFFICIAL, I HATE BOYS.

I've never even seen the movie...yet.

2005-12-16T11:18:00.000-08:00

Take the quiz:
Which famous movie kiss are you?

Breakfast At Tiffany's
You are the Breakfast At Tiffany's kiss!

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"I hope that this brief message will provoke thoughts of change among you."

2005-12-13T00:01:00.000-08:00

Stanley Tookie Williams

December 29th 1953 ~ December 13th 2005

Executed by lethal injection by the State of California in San Quentin Prison.

The Apology

Twenty-five years ago when I created the Crips youth gang with Raymond Lee Washington in South Central Los Angeles, I never imagined Crips membership would one day spread throughout California, would spread to much of the rest of the nation and to cities in South Africa, where Crips copycat gangs have formed. I also didn't expect the Crips to end up ruining the lives of so many young people, especially young black men who have hurt other young black men.

Raymond was murdered in 1979. But if he were here, I believe he would be as troubled as I am by the Crips legacy.

So today I apologize to you all -- the children of America and South Africa -- who must cope every day with dangerous street gangs. I no longer participate in the so-called gangster lifestyle, and I deeply regret that I ever did.

As a contribution to the struggle to end child-on-child brutality and black-on-black brutality, I have written the Tookie Speaks Out Against Gang Violence children's book series. My goal is to reach as many young minds as possible to warn you about the perils of a gang lifestyle.
I am no longer "dys-educated" (disease educated). I am no longer part of the problem. Thanks to the Almighty, I am no longer sleepwalking through life.

I pray that one day my apology will be accepted. I also pray that your suffering, caused by gang violence, will soon come to an end as more gang members wake up and stop hurting themselves and others.

I vow to spend the rest of my life working toward solutions.

Amani (Peace),

Stanley "Tookie" Williams, Surviving Crips Co-Founder, April 13, 1997

Dessert at Large

2005-12-11T23:32:00.000-08:00

I joined Jessyca and Yvoniia for lunch at Claim Jumper on Sunday. I was craving chocolate and so offered to buy dessert and share with my sisters. Little did I know that the "I'Declair" was so huge! Our server tried to warn me, but apparently I wasn't heeding his words. Notice that the pastry is about as tall as the glass. . . I think we may have eaten 1/4 of the dessert and then took it home to show Ma'J 'cause otherwise who would believe us!!!

The Girl in the Mirror

2005-12-09T12:22:00.000-08:00

I am totally annoyed right now. Why do I feel like I have to fight everyone for feeling the way I do? I'm tired of having to defend my choices from the criticism of others opinions. Maybe I sound selfish, in fact I know that I do. But I have spent a major portion of my life not pursuing the things that I wanted because it might unsettle someone else. The motivation for alot of my decisions has been the good of the many over the good of the one, namely me. No one really knows the ammount of self-sacrifice I have felt for the sake of other people. I am at a point in my life now that I am tired of making all my decisions that way. Sometimes I need to do what is best for me and if it rocks the boat a little bit, so be it. I need to be able to look in the mirror and be happy and proud of who I am. And I don't want to have to fight the people that I love to attain it.

Lightsaber

2005-12-08T10:04:00.000-08:00

In a bookstore far far away. . .

Two sisters traversed through the tri-universe of written word, visual art, and vivid sound. Not sure what it was they were searching for they continued their advance high and low. It wasn't until they continued to the ends of the verse to pay tribute for their journey that they found what they were looking for. . .

Of the many things that Jessyca and I did yesterday, one of them was browse around Borders. There is nothing like spending time with your your little sister checking out books, movies, and music, total nerdfest. But part of what really made our day was when we purchased our items. The guy behind the counter was flirting with Jess and all of a sudden I spotted this totally awesome display behind the guy. There, on a long thin shelf, lay Anikan's Lightsaber! Jess and I got all excited. The other two boys behind the counter decided to join in at this point and they let us play with the weapon. He turned it on for us and handed it across the counter to Jess. It actually makes the "hooming" sound. I ended up with it in my hands at this point and the guy tells me to hit Jessyca with it. So I did. And the infamous electronic clashing sound erupted from the weapon when I made contact with her shoulder. The rest of the customers were just staring at us while we played with this very expensive nerdy "toy". Let me just tell you, the three nerdy guys that worked at the bookstore were enjoying our pleasure just as much as we were. Anyway, I want one! But I want Luke Skywalker's green lightsaber from the first three original movies. Jess and I are such nerds, and she doesn't even like StarWars. . .

S/D Tournament #4

2005-12-05T10:18:00.000-08:00

I PLACED!

Let me tell you the story:

Debate was interesting.

Still haven't broken into finals yet. Hopefully next semester. I don't think my partner and I are communicating well and that doesn't help you win rounds. But Sherris just told me she heard good things about my performance from some of the teams that we hit this weekend. That's encouraging.

Friday was 4 debate rounds. I know we won the first round because the judge disclosed to us. We debated both sides of the resolution "The USFG should repeal the No Child Left Behind Act", one side in each of the first two rounds. I tried to run a go Veg plan on the resolution "Go Green", but didn't do too well since I've never run that possition before. And the last resolution of the day was "This house should clean house".

Saturday was debate and pattern A (there are two patterns, A and B, basically just a grouping of events) which meant for me impromptu speaking (you are given 3 quotes and 7 minutes to write and give a speech affirming or negating 1 of the quotes). I went jogging with Frank at 5:30am. Then onto the tournament. We debated "Globalization does more harm than good" and "The Freedom of the Press does more harm than good". Both were interesting rounds.

Apparently I did well in Impromtu. I broke to finals. My quotes?

~"I interpret but do not create" Confucius

~"Action is the only true test of ability" Anonymous

~"A cage bird longs for the clouds" Japanese proverb

~"Good teaching is one-fourth preparation and three-fourths theatre" Gail Godwin

Sunday I woke up with no voice. Dewy had to drop me from events. It was pattern B which meant I didn't get to do my prose or extemporaneaous speaking (which I had made into finals the previous tournament). So I spent that day watching everyone else compete.

And then...the awards ceremony...

The first award was Novice Impromtu, that was me. All the finalists gathered on stage. By this time I was really not feeling well. (You try being sick on the third 12 hour day of competition!) I was exspecting a finalist award, but they kept calling out other schools and other names. Before I knew it I was one of three competitors left. At this point I got nervious thinking this wasn't my event and I would be left standing on the stage after everyone else's name had been called. I even confirmed the event they were awarding with one of my opponents just to be sure. Suddenly I was one of two left on stage. All I heard was "Second place for Impromptu speaking from Palomar. . .", literally, I didn't even hear him say my name. But I had won second place! It took me until this morning to no longer be in shock about it. I didn't think I had done that well. But apparently the judges did!! Go team me, and all my teaching training, and Ben debating with me, and years on stage, and whatever else in my life that prepared me for this activity!

Gone Again!

2005-12-02T08:11:00.000-08:00

I'm off again to another speech/debate tournament. This is Fall "Chumps". I'll be seeing you sometime next week. My life will be pretty much what you see above for the next three days. Pray for me, leave me a message on my voice mail, let me know that the outside world is worth arguing about!

"I hate you!"

2005-11-28T08:36:00.000-08:00

Or that was my brothers line this morning. Apparently he had a dream that he and I were fighting demons. But that wasn't why he "hates" me...my weapon of choice? A shotgun. I left him with the kitchen knife: My poor brother, but like I'm not going to pick the weapon of prominence. And doesnt he think I won't cover him!! 'Cause I will.

This sounded too close to my night. . .

2005-11-24T00:32:00.000-08:00

The Land of Moonlit Magic

You are a siren of the Land of Moonlit Magic. The
moon is your goddess and you follow her with a
mystic eye. You stare up the night sky and
question the world. You are inquisitive and
that is wonderful. You feel most comfortable in
the night air under a cloudless sky. You thrive
under the moonlight.

What is the mystical land of your birth? {13 results with gorgeous anime pics}
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My autonomous date on the beach. . .

2005-11-23T23:59:00.000-08:00

The perfect end of the day was sitting on the beach tonight. (Even if I was by myself.) It was very relaxing to listen to the waves and feel the breeze on my face. I love living in Southern California!

So far this weekend;

2005-11-19T22:51:00.000-08:00

Today we went to the shooting range. I shot a .22 and a .38. My aim is not half bad. . .

Me/Frank

Lindsay/Jam-o

Friday night I went with some of debate team members to go see Walk the Line. Jason, being a huge Johnny Cash fan, was skeptical about how well the film would portray his hero. Well, not only did Jason approve but the film was very well done. Juaquin Phoenix and Reese Witherspoon were great, some of the best chemestry I've seen on screen in awhile. This movie was a little erie for me because within the first 20 minutes of the film a character dies in a way that I had previously dreamed about one of my friends dieing about two months ago. It was an awkward memory of the nightmare. Otherwise the film just reminded me how attracted I am to the greaser look. . .

My Newest Art~Work

2005-11-18T07:32:00.000-08:00

Per a conversation that I had with a friend recently, I have decided that it's about time I start drawing and painting, etc, again. So here are my first two attempts last night:

I used to draw mountains all the time. . .

I don't know who this is, but I like it.

I think it needs to be inked though, pencil doesn't seem to do it justice.

Speech/Debate Tournament #3

2005-11-14T09:42:00.000-08:00

This weekend I won a 4th place in finals for extemporaneous speaking!!!!

(That's when you are given 3 questions and 30 minutes to prepare a 7 minute speach answering any 1 of the proposed questions using your prepared newspaper/media articles)

I didn't expect to break in extemp considering I still have had no formal training and it was only my second time competing in that type of speaking...I was in shock when Jam-o told me. And I was very nervious during finals. Only Frank came to watch me, which was perfectly ok with me. We'll see how much better I can do next time.

Here's a few pics of the team:

J3 (that's my new nick~name), Frank, and Lindsay

Jam-o and Allison

Jason, Jam-o, and Frank (furthest to nearest)

Mac (and Jason's arm)

Hannah

Allison, Hannah, and Lindsay

My Gyro, Your Gyro...So I Forgot To Label It!!!

2005-11-08T12:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I met Lindsay for lunch. (Well, we also dropped her car off to get the brakes checked and I stoped at my bank and took care of the check card situation.) But anyway, we went to George Burgers. I love that place! I bought myself a gyro and Lindsay and I shared chili cheese fries. I took most of the gyro home thinking, "I'll have it for lunch tomorrow while I'm doing research". Fat chance!! Dad got to my gyro before I did. What did I do? I called him on it, literally. I called him at work to yell at him. What was his response? "It didn't have your name on it. The rule is if youdon't want anybody to eat your food you have to label it." And truthfully, that is the family rule. So technically I can't be mad. But I really really wanted my gyro. . .

The Governator

2005-11-05T16:26:00.000-08:00

Today I went and saw my governor (Arnold schwarzenegger) speak. After standing around for about an hour and a half or so he only spoke for maybe 15-20 minutes. His comments were very brief about this elections propositions. I'm not sure what I was expecting but I figured it was worth the experience of hearing him speak in person. (Thanks Sean for letting me know about it and for driving to the event.)

While we were standing in line to the hanger, where our Gov would speak, Warren Beatty and Annette Bening showed up right behind us. The press and others surrounded them to see if they had anything interesting to say. After deliberating between Sean and his dad we decided to check it out. I was standing right next to a Fox6 reporter as she held her microphone out towards the actors. Not much was happening just yet, meaning I didn't think that he was saying anything worth while at the time so Sean and I decided to get back into line. All of a sudden there were guys with camera's in front of me and then I felt someone get a little too close for comfort, pushing on my shouldered purse. I turned around and it was Beatty bumping into me. So yea, I was about to give this Hollywood actor "the look".

Semper Fidelis

2005-11-04T23:59:00.001-08:00

Frank and I went to go see Jarhead today. I think I get my enjoyment of war films from Dad. I saw Saving Private Ryan twice on opening weekend. I also may be partial to this genre because of my para-military upbringing. Martial Arts can have that effect on you. I think I'm in love with the idea of fighting for something greater than the individual. However, todays wars seem to lose that sense of ideology.
Back to the film. The most impressive thing about it was the cinematography. The look. If you check out the images on the website you'll notice that a 1000 words don't do them justice. Picturesque doesn't begin to describe. Secondly the acting was amazing. Jake Gyllenhaal once again proved to me to be more than just currently poplular. And Jamie Fox continues to impress me with his talent.
On the drive back home Frank and I decided that this was a very draining movie. Not like some that leave you on a kind of downer, but it leaves you with no conclusion, no solution. The problem remains, in a foriegn dessert, where American jarheads are filled with alien sand. Oo-rah.

I think I will go and buy the book tomorrow.

Most memorable quote: “Sir, I got lost on the way to college, sir!”

Random Wednesdays. . .

2005-11-02T12:08:00.000-08:00

Today has been an adventure already and I haven't accomplished anything that is on my ToDo list.
Dad layed his bike out this morning and so I have picked him up from the cycle center where his bike is getting fixed, taken him to Mervyns to replace his torn up slacks, tried to buy Little Brother some new cords but my check card wouldn't work, ate breakfast at IHOP, and now have to go to the bank to fix the check card situation. None of these things I was expecting to do today. LAME.
Dad is ok though, just a little road burned, and the bike didn't have much damage. Stupid other bike rider who cut Dad off and made him lock up his wheels.

Nephi and I won 3 out of 6 debates over the weekend. We got the critiques back yesterday. I generally got second speaker out of the four debaters in each round. Not too bad. However, my next partner has to compete in Open competition and I am still a Novice debator. Talk about reasons to get nervious again. . .

Speech/Debate Tournament #2

2005-11-01T11:52:00.000-08:00

Things I learned at last weekends competition:

Never listen to Dave's directions, he sends you directly into the traffic.
Make sure that Jason has a working cd payer in his vehicle or else he gets grumpy.
If you are going to join Jason in stealing the girls keys and towels, be prepared to sleep with one eye open.
Break in all new pairs of shoes before wearing them to a tournament where you have to run around all day.
If you have to wear new, unbroken-in shoes bring sandals, bandaids and neosporen with you.
Do not engage into a debate with random-crazy-mis-quoting-the-Bible-hotel-patrons-from-the-inner-city (even if there are five of you ready to throw down; Jason, Dave, Hannah, Shawn, and me).
Don't eat too much food when your body is physically reacting to being nervious even when you are not mentally feeling it (ie. waking up early with an upset stomach that doesn't go away until the entire competition is over).
Don't forget to look at the judge who is giving you your time signals.
Don't eat really greasy fish and chips dinners right before the awards ceremony from an English Pub when all you've had to eat that day is a banana and orange juice at 7-something-a.m.

* and for those of you who are still wondering what happened with my possible oops? Nothing. Apparently I have a flare for expecting the dramatic. All is well in love and war.

I've been away...

2005-10-30T04:55:00.000-08:00

I meant to let you all know that I am at a speech tournament this weekend. So far it has been an interesting experience. More to come...
Jenni-Ru

Mr.A-Z

2005-10-27T12:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I suppose that I like Jason Mraz. . .
This was the second concert I have been to this year! It was amazing and I will post more about the happenings later, but now, it's off to school.

PICS: http://www.flickr.com/photos/jenni-ru/
(Hint-they are labeled "Soma Conert Oct 05")

A Thank You (and a possible opps)

2005-10-25T20:14:00.000-07:00

Thanks you everyone that went out to breakfast after church on Sunday; Robert, Irina, Jose, Elizabeth, and Johnny! I had a blast, I need more of that kind of laid back, enjoying eachothers company, christian interaction!

On another note...I may have just made a mistake. I hope not though. I can only wait and see I guess. *sigh* I know I'm being vague, but I don't want to say too much right now. Thanks for listening. . .

A Saturday; as they should be

2005-10-22T23:49:00.000-07:00

Today was a good day;
*Dr's appointment in the morning. Pretty easy~conversation, short examination, give up some of my life blood for testing~it took all of 20 minutes.
*Drive back to the Dennis's for breakfast and hang out time. Jessyca taught me how to play the bass, so I did that for the very first time.
*And then a drive to the OC for BBQ with Auntie Lanei and company. The Holland children are histerical. Big brother Alex wrestling with his little sisters, lil Trin dancing to every song that played and Harley growing up as fast as ever...
*Did you know that Fat Albert was actually a decent kids movie. Seriously, Jess and I enjoyed watching it, I was totally surprised.
*Then back home to watch Batman Begins. Why oh why can't I have my own personal Bruce Wayne?

Odd Objects In Unconventional Places

2005-10-21T23:57:00.000-07:00

Today was a strange day. I spent my morning at the hospital getting follow up scans done. Laying there for about an hour while this machine slowly scans you up and down is such an exciting adventure... And then Josh called and we went to visit a friends mom, who I just found out had a stroke this year and is now home bound. It was good to see her and see that she is doing well. Mrs. Thrasher almost started crying at one point and it was all I could do not join with her. It's amazing how 30 minutes of your own time can touch someone elses life. It's amazing how practicle ministry can really be. I pray that God never lets me forget that. My parents and I went to dinner at a local italian restaurant. Mom's phone kept ringing making conversation difficult. And then Dad took food off mine and Mom's plate without asking which made the rest of dinner, well, interesting. I hope my future husband and I don't fight over such menial (but symbolicly important) actions. Then I went to go visit Jessyca. I haven't spent much time with her lately and I was missing her. We had fun just chillaxin'. Then we found the sponge in the strange place (see pic above). I mean really, what is a sponge doing sitting behind a pillar? The randomness of reality hit me. Life is full of odd objects it unconventional places.

The Amazing CD

2005-10-20T21:11:00.000-07:00

I was driving myself back home from an afternoon at school (where I basically slept on my speech coaches couch for a few hours and then went to dinner with a couple of team members~sounds reminiscent of my Sr year of highschool) when one of my CD's flew out of the holder attached to the sunvisor, as they like to do when I take left hand turns a little too fast, but instead of falling down between the passenger seat and the door it stuck itself between the rubber guard and the window!...go Josh Groban go!!

Brent's Truck

2005-10-12T17:06:00.000-07:00

Sooo, my brother is lame. I spent the entire day helping him get his truck out of impound. An entire day of driving from government buildings to office buildings, to impound lots, to mechanic's lobbies...it was a game of hurry up and wait in such and such a lobby or line or both. My brother better love me! J/K~I know he does. Well, we had been trying to spend more time together. I hope next time it will be without the whole family emergency over shadowing us, that and the spending of my money wasn't so fun either. Good thing he's worth it!

My Solution

2005-10-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

So, Dad and I are talking about my moving into his office and sharing the space with him. Meaning my computor/study space and his office would all be in one room.

All of this is to help me from feeling suffocated in my bedroom that I have lived in since second grade, that's 17 years! (I just did the math.)

We've been dabating how to make the desk space work in that room. We also have a futon that needs to remain there for Mom's Lactation Consultant/breast pump business and for when family or friends come to stay.

I think I came up with a solution:

Laptop table "DAVE" from IKEA

...this just might work...

My Anti Mexico Experience

2005-10-08T20:55:00.000-07:00

So I started my summer off with a week in TJ building a house for a family and "ended" it with a three day lock down in a hospital room. Here's the run down of the compare/contrast:

Mexico:
1- Shower once a day if it fits into your schedule and your bus gets back in time
2- Bathroom is a port-a-potty; don't put your toilet paper in the hole but the trash bag provided
3-No running water (except the hoses used to create the "showers")
4- Share a bungalow with 4-5 other girls and never go anywhere alone
5- Drink as much fluids as you can

Hospital:
1- Shower as many times in one day as you can
2- Flush the toilet 3x after every use
3- Run the water in the sink 3-5 minutes after every use
4- Everyone must maintain a 6' distance and few minutes visitation limit from me; seclusion
4- Drink as much fluids as you can

Soooo...yea...there's not much else to talk about. I spent the first day sitting around waiting for my room with Pastor Pat, Kathy Mc, Mom and Dad, then waiting in my room for the Doc and his Radiation Tech to arrive with the pill in a heavy-duty thick-metal suitcase. After receiving my instructions (see above) I was handed a small shot glass with a bluish-purple pill that the tech handed to me with purple latex gloved hands ("two by two hands of...'purple'?"). I was told to throw back the pill and chase it with some H2O. I was then properly radiated.

I spent the next two days in solitary confinement. I received a few phone calls and visitors throughout the two days. The first day wasn't so bad, I actually enjoyed the quiet, but by day two it was already old. Daytime television; not all that exciting, reading; made my eyes tired and sleepy, not much left to do after that.

I am very happy to be home now, to see Gatsby and be around people once again. I still have to maintain my distance for a few more days, so don't expect me at church service tomorrow, but at least I have people around me and human interaction.

Thank You: to the staff at the hospital, all my nurses and aids (especially Cory, he was my daytime aid all three days) you all were kind and took very good care of me, I appreciate it!!

FYI: There were some pretty cute looking EMT's running around on day one (didn't see any on my way out Friday) I might have to add them to the Firefighter fettish I have.

I'm not boy crazy, I swear! Ok, maybe a little...but, they are kinda...everywhere!

I told you his sit spin was amazing!

2005-10-07T21:54:00.000-07:00

(I wish this pic would show up larger...)

I know you all want to hear about my stay at the hospital...it's all sooooo exciting...but I needed to post 'cause I just found out that my baby won So You Think You Can Dance. You know I pick the good ones, every time!!!! Well, only the ones on tv and film and totally unavailable to me. Where are the guys in real life that I can pick from? My fish bowl is getting slowly empty of available males (not that I pick good ones when it is full, but whatev).

GO Nick, I love you, call me sometime!

(I'm lame, I know, leave me alone.)

I'll be away...

2005-10-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, all of you that read my blog...
I will be taking a short break from blogging per today is my last day before being locked down in a hospital room for 2-3 days and then I still have a few days of recovery after that. All is well and this is the very simple proceedure of swallowing a pill. But I will be slightly radio active for awhile...anyway, I will be getting my room number to those who live here in San Diego so that if you want to brave it you may come and visit me in my room.
Love to all!!!!!
Jenni~ru

TGIF/Serenity

2005-09-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

Good Morning All. Not much to say right now, just starting my day.

It is Friendship Friday, and I missed it last week, but I haven't had time to put some stuff together about my best friend Caitlin yet. Hopefully I'll have time today. Otherwise, I'm just getting caught up with school work. So much reading! "I'd be an avid reader if it weren't for school!" That's my quote, but you can use it too!

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Last night I saw a midnight showing of the movie Serenity. It's based off the Fox series Firefly, that they of course canceled (go figure Fox), created by Joss Whedon (Buffy/Angel).

The movie was awesome, I got a very large greating when I got there because my friend Jiffer was the one to set up the viewing through a friend that manages a theater and is also a fan. It was a smaller crowd, but everyone there was huge fans and even a few people dressed up as the characters. Their costumes were pretty good too! I know I sound like a huge dork right now, sci-fi nerd, but I love it and can't help it!!! No appologies here.

The ensemble cast of this show is amazing. I love to see such a great range of characters with writers and actors to match them. The dialogue is great and the chemestry and performance of all the actors brings them to life as one living entity instead individual characters. I would be extreemly blessed to work with such a group someday!

Just a few cast members:

Dr. Simon Tam (Sean Maher)

My crush.

Doctor.

Passenger.

Federal Fugitive.

He's cute.

He's a medical genious.

He's sexy.

He love's his sister!

(Go team big brother, not in the 1984 sense...)

Jayne Cobb(Adam Baldwin)

My Favorite Character.

Mercenary.

Money Hungry.

Tank Moron.

Calls 'em as he sees 'em.

I'd take him with me into war.

Most likely to commit mutany.

His guns name is 'Vera'.

Best quotes!

River Tam (Summer Glau)

Character I would want to be.

Passenger.
Federal Fugitive.

Psychic.

Assasin.

More Genious than her brother.

(Started correcting her brothers spelling when she was 3.)

Dancer.

'No power in the 'verse can stop her'.

Hoban "Wash" Washburne (Alan Tudyk)

Honorable Mention.

Pilot.

Better pilot than Han Solo.

Comedic relief.

Peacemaker.

Plays with dinosaur action figures.

The only married man on the ship.

"I am a leaf on the wind. Watch how I soar"

So You Think You Can Dance

2005-09-29T13:10:00.000-07:00

So You Think You Can Dance

Ok, so if you haven't been watching this show every week like I have,

you're forgiven.

When James Lipton, the host of 'Inside The Actor's Studio', asks his guests his famous top ten questions the second to last one is always, "What profession other than yours would you like to attempt?".

If I were to ask myself a modified version of this question;

Me: What profession other than the one you're currently studing would you like to attempt?

Myself: Dancer/Choreographer.

End Interview.

This is why I love this show.

Nick Lazzarini:

I could watch this guy dance until my 'OJOS' dried up and popped out and then I would just soak them in saline solution and watch him some more.

I know he's only 20, but I think I have a major crush on him....help!

He is absolutely beautiful. His sit spin is amazing! His lines are statuesque. He's landed every tumble. He can perform any style they throw at him...

Aaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Major Aesthetic Eye Candy!!!!!

Dan Karaty:

Ok, as if I could stop at just one crush for the show...right. Dan, is so hot! Of course he looks short. And if you look short on the small screen? Oh well, I guess I could settle on one of my physical requests. I love the guys choreography and I love the way he deals with confrontation. (If you were watching the show you'd know about the altercation between him and Blake McGrath) As a judge, he's not affraid to speak his voice even if it's different from all the other judges. This guy is staight up amazing.

He looks like someone though and I can't place who he reminds me of...any ideas?

HNT #6

2005-09-29T09:38:00.000-07:00

Happy HNT!!!

This is my eye...um, duh.

I happen to love my eyes.

I thought I'd share one of them with you today.

Thank You!!!

2005-09-28T12:19:00.000-07:00

Thank you all for praying for me!!

Mel: Thanks for the reminder of my own profile!!!

I ended up having a great day.

My Speech coach and two of the girls took me to lunch and I was able to hang out and watch movies with the team after practice.

Jason has taken to acting as my brother/protector on the team and the girls have been really great in looking out for me too.

So everyone know that this new group of people in my life is treating me very well. I believe that your prayers have played a big part in that area. Besides them all being so big hearted!!!

Again, thanks, gotta go run to class now!

Craptacular Day

2005-09-27T09:05:00.006-07:00

I am already having a craptacular day. Emotions; anger, frustration, anxiousness, nervousness, lethargy, apprehension, etc. Pray for me
Jenni-Ru

Thanks Elliott...I think..?

2005-09-26T15:45:00.000-07:00

People wonder why I am affraid of window reflections?......

http://www.biteycastle.com/taken.htm

Weekend catch up

2005-09-26T15:26:00.000-07:00

Soo, on FRIDAY was my first debate competition ever:
I was paired up with Allison, the only girl~girl partnership on the team. Apparently they try to veer away from f/f partners because m/m partners are seen as bulling to the f/f partners. But I think that Allison and I make it work. We hold our own, and not once did we come up against a partnership with any female member.

Our resolutions: (this only makes sense if you know anything about debate)
~ "THW (This House would) substantially change the way America responds to disaster." ~Gov.
~ "America has lost it's values." ~Neg.
~ "It is better to use a stick than a carrot" ~Neg.
~ "Men are easier to convince than women" ~Gov.

I still don't know how many of the rounds we "won" but we didn't place at all. Which curiously I am perfectly okay with. (bad grammar, but this is blogging...) Allison and I were just happy to get some experience under our belt and as Jason put it, I got a "taste for blood".

I am in love with debate. Now if I can only get my homeostasis back in order I know that I could get much better at this game. Look out Ben, JW, Kelly, Nick, Brent, Shanon-joi and any of my other argumentative friends, family members, and acquaintances...I am about to step up my game!

Side note: I wore the only suit that I have. I wore the skirt instead of the pants. Per Dewi it was a little too short but it would work for the first competition. I put on nylons. However, the responses to my wearing this suit were all the same:

* "You have really great legs!" ~Allison/Lindsay (girls on the team with me)
* "Nice." ~Jason after giving me the the up-down outside of KFC
* "You look really good. No really, if I were a few years younger I would ask for your number." ~random office type looking man outside of WallMart

So, I guess I look good in a skirt and high heels business suit.

SATURDAY:
I wasn't feeling so hot. I called in sick to my second day of competitions and stayed in bed instead. However, by that night I was feeling better, or so I thought, so when this guy asked me to go on a date with him I said yes.

He took me to a sushi bar where I had real sushi, not California rolls, for the first time. I actually liked it. The dinner part of the date was really nice.

Then came the movie part. We went to go see 'Four Brothers'. I've been looking forward to going to see this movie for awhile now. And as much as I like the guy I went out with I was not prepared to battle with him over whether or not we were going to make out during the movie. I missed part of the plot because of it.

I now remember why I don't date random guys I don't know all that well...because you never know what they are going to expect from you. *sigh* I guess dating is just not something that works for christian girls. I should know this, I do know this, I should have remembered to know this. I'm not into dating for make out sessions, so boys, don't ask if that's what you're looking for from me. Do I like kissing and cuddling, etc. Oh yeah! Who doesn't? Am I going to with you? Are we going to fondle eachother, let alopubliclylly, ummm, no.

Even my dad liked the guy after meeting him briefly before we left when he picked me up. My dad mentioned it when we drove to church the next morning. But on further review, I don't think dating will occurringing in the near future for me.

Sorry boys, but if you want to get close to me, spend some time with me and my family and friends first, then we'll talk.

SUNDAY:
Pretty chill day. Church, the kids came over for youth group, while I took another nap (still not feeling up to par yet) then a quick stop at the mall and the now Dennis' house and then home and in bed by 10pm or so. I need to get my homeostasis up to normal levels!!!

TODAY:
...just chillin', gettin' school stuff together for tomorrow and then preparing to be radio active for a few days. yeah....fun...?

(Those of you who don't know this is the last treatment in winning battle over cancer and the rest is just follow up.)

Josh

2005-09-22T19:52:00.000-07:00

I literally just got off the phone with this guy. He was "the" guy in my high school experience. He was my bestfriend and so much more. We "tried" the whole dating (<-- I use that term loosely) thing for maybe a few months around Christmas time our Junior year, but things went down hill from there. He is now Five years married to a wonderful girl that I don't really know all that well right now, Narissa, and has a soon to be 3 year old son named Noah.

This conversation was a long time coming and I'm glad we had it because I feel so much better right now. Seriously. I guess closure may have been a big part of it, although we had both forgiven one another for our, what we once thought were "mature", actions towards one another, and in hind sight agree that we may not have been as mature as we thought we were...or still are. Lol. But he said the words that I have been desperately needing to hear. "You have alot to offer."

I guess I trust his judgement in that area more right now because where I have been questioning that is in my male, or romantic, relationships. He's the only other guy that has been in my life that can validify (if that's a real word) the truth of that statement.

Moms, sisters, fathers, and brothers: you have all been trying to say this to me, and accomplishing it, but I think I needed to hear it from someone who knew me like he did.

And boy did Josh know me! A big part of who I am today is because of this man of God. Then he may have been a boy, but he is a man now and I am proud to have been part of his defining past.

Josh: Thank you so much for everything you just said to me. Some of it is too much to share here, online, but you know what you said and what it means to me. I look forward to learning what it means to play the role of sister in Christ in your life and the life of your wife and child. Say hello to them for me!! May God bless your family always.

HNT #5

2005-09-22T11:28:00.000-07:00

These are my polished nails from the wedding last Sunday. They were painted on Sunday, it's now HNT and the polish has already been chiping! Lame. But they were good looking hands while it lasted!

Quote of the day

2005-09-20T11:40:00.000-07:00

I know it's early still, but this quote made me laugh (you might have to be a writer or avid reader to appreciate it though):

"We will Extract the Rhetorical Maneuvers and attempt to Justify them and if we cannot we will Condemn them!" ~Prof. Gowen quoting one of his former professors

I just realized that sounded better in the context of the classroom setting and understanding the story behind it. But I wanted to remember it, so here it lies in my blog as a future resource. . .

The Wedding

2005-09-18T23:45:00.000-07:00

Jessyca's mom's wedding:
What a crazy day!
A good day!
A confusing day.
Mixed feelings for me.
Extreemly happy feelings for Ma'J and Papa J!!!!!
I don't know where to begin.
Ma'J was gorgeous!
Papa J looked sharp!
D'Moor did an amazing job on hair!
Mary is an artist with make up!
The food was great! (except my tummy was being weird so I didn't really get to pig out like I wanted to)
The DJ was great! (lot's of fun dancing, I kept trying to leave the dance floor but the next song just had tobe danced to!!!!)
I had to walk into the reception on my own because my groomsman escort was MIA. (I hated it, but had to suck it up and be the strong independant woman, whatev.)
Ben was annoying. (Not purposefully, but he kept calling me with q's, and of course he looked really good, and basically ignored me during the reception) (I wasn't really very friendly either though so I can't blame it all on him)
I loved dancing with all my boys. (That's you Johnny, Elloit, and Chris!)
All in all though, it was a hit, a beautiful wedding!
And a lot of fun too!!
Jessyca and I are going to crash on the couches tonight.
That's it, I know it's not much, but I'm sooooo tired!
Love you all...

Friendship Friday: Ben.

2005-09-16T13:53:00.000-07:00

*Ok, so, I feel like you all must know Jessyca so well because our lives seem to intertwine so extensively right now. Anywho, I wanted all my other friends that mean so much to me to receive equal time and space on my blog, seeing as they have been as much a part of making me who I am as my younger sis has.*

I thought I would start with:

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Ben

http://enigmabenhew.blogspot.com/

!!!!!!!!!!!!Because Today Is His 24th Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!

I met Ben my Senior year of high school. I "knew of" him before that in the sense that I had seen him around school and knew that he was involved in drama.

Apparently he 'liked' me from day one. I, of course, 'liked' his best friend, Jon. That's how things go in high school. Silly love triangles all the time.

However, a friendship developed none the less. I loved him so thoroughly on the platonic level before anything romantic ever came of it. I never knew anyone could ask so many questions. I never knew anyone could inspire me to ask myself so many questions. I never knew anyone could be so annoying.

Do you have any idea how many times I had to go home to my mom or to my leaders at church to find out an answer to his questions, that became my questions most days too, about my beliefs and why they were what they were and where they were located in the Bible, etc etc etc?

Strangely, to this day, he is better at locating scripture than I am.

Truthfully, I am grateful for having someone like him enter my life. Questions need to be asked. I find myself asking those questions without his promptings nowadays...even if I do hear them in the form of his deep bass voice.

Being young and impetuous (and not knowing any better at the time) we spent a lot of our early years sneaking me off campus in the trunk of my car (per I didn't have a class but also didn't have an off-campus pass and he didn't have class either but did have an off-campus pass) to go swimming or sit the the jacuzzi or go get food, or simply take a nap on the couch in wings of the stage. After that it was a bunch of hanging out, movies, food, dancing, getting eachother through rocky relationships, setting each other up into rocky relationships...you know the general best friend type stuff.

Which is what he became. My best friend. I think we've seen more of eachother's good and bad sides than most people will know about anyone else. And somehow, we still liked each other.

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Emerson pretty much summed us up.

Our other past time was arguing, or rather, debating. We would spend hours going back and forth about random subjects. Mostly we realized that we were saying the same things but our definition of words were different. Strange that we both grew up in San Diego County but still not all of our vocabulary has the same meaning to us. Another time we discovered that he was basically debating for the existence of God and I was for the non existence of God (unintentionally of course). Something about how I wanted to date older men and that leading into a debate about the existence of time, therefore leading to the existence of God, somehow. I don't remember the exact map of that argument, but it was memorable all the same.

Ben was not a Christian when I first met him. I never really worried about him like I did other people though because there was this intense innate desire within him to seek out the truth. Not the truth he happened to be able to agree or live with, not simply the acceptable truth, but the real truth, whether he liked it or not.

Things that I admire about Ben:

*His innate desire for real truth

*His ability to be who he is not caring what other people think of him (and they have thought a few things...)

*His honesty (even when it hurts)

I never knew it was possible to love and hate someone so intensely and in the same moment, until Ben. If ever I have learned anything about what love truly is and isn't, it has been because of my relationship with him. God keeps bringing me back to this scripture:

"Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Love never dies." ~ 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 The Message

Romance may have been a disaster between Ben and I, but it's the aftermath of a broken love that determines who you are. maybe Ben and I are too stubborn to really give it all up. More than likely it's God teaching us that love is all that He claims it is; as stated above. I may not always want to love Ben, but there will never come a day that if someone asks me if I still love him that I will answer "no".

We started as friends, we will spend eternity maintaining that friendship. I know Ben well enough that I can speak for him on this particular issue. The nature of relationships is continually changing, and that's alright. It may not be easy, in fact I can guarantee that it will be messy. But my life is better for having Ben in it. No matter what my emotions might tell me (or you) in the moment. Our involvement in eachothers lives might be more or less involved than what we expected, but he is and forever will be, my brother in Christ, my friend.

"True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."- George Washington

This was/is our song:

11 Just Wait.wma
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Lyrics:

If ever you are feeling like you're tired * And all your uphill struggles leave you headed downhill * If you realize your wildest dreams can hurt you * And your appetite for pain has drinken its fill * I ask of you a very simple question * Did you think for one minute that you are alone * And is your suffering a privilege you share only * Or did you think that everybody else feels completely at home * Just wait * Just wait * Just wait * And it will come * If you think I've given up on you you're crazy * And if you think I don't love you well then you're just wrong * In time you just might take to feeling better * Time is the beauty of the road being long * I know that now you feel no consolation * But maybe if I told you and informed you out loud * I say this without fear of hesitation * I can honestly tell you that you make me proud * Just wait * Just wait * Just wait * And it will come * Just wait * Just wait * Just wait * And it will come * If anything I might have just said has helped you * If anything I might have just said helped you just carry on * Your rise uphill may no longer seem a struggle * And your appetite for pain may all but be gone * I hope for you and cannot stop at hoping * Until that smile has once again returned to your face * There's no such thing as a failure who keeps trying * Coasting to the bottom is the only disgrace * Just wait * Just wait * Just wait * And it will come * Just wait * Just wait * Just wait * And it will come * Just wait * Just wait * Just wait * And it will come

Last Minute Thoughts Before Crawling Into Bed

2005-09-16T00:03:00.000-07:00

Ummm, ok, if you've never spent a day at the spa, female or male, you need to. A spa mani/pedi, a 1/2 hour message, and a full hour facial...geez. I will never be the same again! No joke. Thanks Mom you're awesome for paying for it all and making it happen!!

Second, Whitney Houston and Bobby Brown...I'm sorry, I can't ever watch you again. You almost killed my spa buzz. What's with all the yelling and the making a spectical of yourself and Whitney, didn't you used to have some class?!?!?! I don't understand, I could barely walk down the hall to Jessyca's bedroom, I felt drunk with stupidity, or the awe of stupidity. I know I just wrote an entire entry earlier today about reserving judgement, and I know I don't know you, but that was all on tape, and you were in a public place acting like that...I don't get it. I at least hope that you are truely happy, 'cause I would have headaches 24x7 if I lived like that.

Two more days to the wedding. Right on, good deal! I can't wait. Even if I don't have a date and my ex is gonna be there. Who cares, it's time to party! Ma'J is getting married, whoooooohooooooo!!!!!!!

Oh, and Ben Happy 24th birthday...ummm...today I guess, it's late/early enough to actually say that.

Todays Compliment:

Hey Jenni

called you the other day..it's been a long time I know....sorry..I have no good excuse for not calling you. But I would love to have a heart to heart with you one of these days....the liberals of california are killing me...would love to speak with some one who I know is on the same page as me....if nothing else as friends to help keep me sane. not to sound political but I think of of you every time I find myself in a debate....hope all is well, take care and God Bless....

-Scott

*Reading this today made me feel really good about myself. Thanks Scott, just wanted everyone to know what a good friend you are, can't wait to talk to you soon!!!

Reserve All Judgement

2005-09-15T11:55:00.000-07:00

“. . . I’m inclined to reserve all judgments, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made me the victim of not a few veteran bores. The abnormal mind is quick to detect and attach itself to this quality when it appears in a normal person, and so it came about that in college I was unjustly accused of being a politician, because I was privy to the secret griefs of wild, unknown men.” ~ Nick from The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald

Ok, Many of you who know that my cats name is Gatsby might assume that I know that book inside and out. The truth is I haven’t read it since Jr year of high school. I picked it up today to re-read it. And what did I find in the third paragraph of the first page?...none other than the quote I listed. Why do I find it so fascinating? It was highlighted in my book already and because this is exactly who I am and how I have chosen to live and the consequences of that choice. “Reserve judgment” are the exact two workds that I use when describing how I respond to meeting knew people. I don’t like to decide upon what kind of person I am dealing with based on first impressions. I tend to stand back and watch and listen before I formulate in my mind who the person is and their motivation behind it. The truth is, most people pick up on this right away, whether or not they realize it. Consequently people tend to open up to me and share things with me that they might not be comfortable talking to their bestfreind about. I am privy to the secret griefs of many. Maybe I would make a good politician. Excepting that I would never betray that trust to use it to my advantage or even the advantage of others. That and I hate politicians, I love statesmen; one who exercises political leadership wisely and without narrow partisanship (Merr/Web online). Anywho, I thought it interesting that you never know how much what you read might stick with you…

HNT #4

2005-09-15T10:01:00.000-07:00

Here it is, my one and only tattoo. I got it on my 21st birthday. The rosebud is white and the characters are Korean for faith, hope, and love. I drew the characters myself, so that's my personal artwork there. I don't draw roses all that well so I left it up to the tattoo artist. I do not regret getting the tattoo, but occassionally wish I had gotten it a little smaller. Otherwise, I love it. Again, here it is, my beautiful tattoo (which, btw, is hard to take a picture of yourself when it's located on your lower left back...)

I'm Sorry...

2005-09-13T23:14:00.000-07:00

Everyday I think of things as they happen that I should post on my blog, so that all my blogger buddies can be in on the happenings of my day. You know, quotes of the day, funny things that I see, my high’s and low’s, stories, etc. But then, by the time I get home it is sometimes too late or I am too exhausted to want to type anything up. It sucks, ‘cause some of it is pretty good stuff. But by the time I get to blogging again a few days later, I don’t remember what I was going to say.

*So this is me, saying, I’m sorry, for being too tired to type and let you know what paradigm shift I am on for everyday of my life. That and I will never see that day again and can now never relive it again either, all because I was too tired. Story of my summer…geez.*

On to today…and not too much of it ‘cause once again, I am tired.

Jason, from speech and debate: He is technically a student, but also assistant coach.
He also is mildly attractive to me. Not in a way that I can’t focus or I have to get all gussied up over or anything. But definitely that my eyes drift towards him occasionally and my ears pick out his voice above everyone else. I think mostly I’m curious. He’s very different in one sense of what I am usually attracted to. Physically, he’s not athletic at all. But he does have dark hair. He’s not overly tall, but he is taller than me. He dresses like a greaser. You know, The Outsiders, 1950’s kinda look. I definitely like that. However he is an extremely intelligent, well spoken, speed talking, confident, arrogant, observant, well informed, smoking, independent, younger man (by 5 years).
Tuesday through Thursday I am completely enthralled by his personality and what it is that I might like or dislike about the guy. Then by the weekend I’m on to other things. But then Tuesday must roll around again. Not to mention that I will be seeing much more of him on weekends once competitions start.
So what’s my point in bringing all of this up?
You will be hearing about this guy. I will consider posting a pic of him. But that might be weird ‘cause what if he eventually finds my blog and reads this and doesn’t want his pic on here…let alone sees that I am posting about him.
I think at this point I am simply intrigued by the guy, and I want to know why.
So, over the next year, I will be trying to figure it out.

What I did over the weekend:
Saturday~I spent the day at Disneyland all expenses paid by my longest standing friend and her husband, Lisa and Nathaniel. Pics tobe posted.
Sunday~Church, pivotPoint (youth meeting), and hung out at Jessyca’s
Monday~slept in,
took Johnny shopping for a shirt for the wedding,
went to Guitar Center, found the guitar I want that I will only let myself by if I actually start practicing,
Johnny found his $3,000 keyboard there too, then took a nap at my house (after unloading a bunch of food and supplies for the Rehearsal Dinner at my house this weekend),
and then on to Jessyca’s house to spend the night,
read some of my Eng 202 homework,
watched The Outsiders and then slept to be awoken by Kia and her kisses,
interviewed Jessyca for my Eng 202 paper and then off to start my…

Tuesday…I was at school all day,
except for the small ‘sebatical’ to get my 2nd spray on tan for the wedding and make a pit stop at home to eat food (a Marie Callendar’s microwave chicken pot pie),
met with my counselor and found out I won’t be ready to transfer to SDSU until the spring of 2007,
napped in my car (and also made a few phone calls),
debate team stuff (see above for fascination with Jason),
came home and read a few things from the Korean newspaper,
Next Wave (youth pivotPoint leadership meeting) where my tummy was upset about the mash potoatoes and corn and broccoli that I ate for dinner),
talked on the phone with Jessyca,
posted on my blog.

Ok, I feel a little better now that you know my life in the most boring sense…I’ll get more creative as time fly’s by…I am going to be a film maker, I have to be more entertaining than this.

HNT #3

2005-09-08T22:51:00.000-07:00

Shanon's dad took this picture of me and then Jess photoshoped it for me. Looks cool huh?!

(Notice Jess, I am all set for going out, pink pumps and jeans...

yeah, can't go wrong there!)

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On another note.

This is the pic that I gave to Ben as a going away gift in a black frame/matt.

On the matt I wrote in silver sharpie:

"There is a part of me that will always miss you. The corner of my mind that still hears the benefit of your voice. Maintian a firm grasp...Our Lord is about to accelerate you through time. I am honored to have played my role in the man that you are becoming. I am proud of all that I have already seen you do. Here's to catching you on the flipside."

1 Corinthians 13

"Time is the beauty of the road being long"

"I hope for you and cannot stop at hoping"

"There's no such thing as a failure who keeps trying"

~Blues Travelers
Hopefully I didn't sound too sappy, but what do you say to the guy who has been your bestfriend and first love and everything in between, when he moves away?

I decided to stick to the truth, that's what always worked for us.

Why Wednesday

2005-09-07T21:46:00.000-07:00

Why;
~won't my sound work?
~don't I have an audio device on my computor?
~do I have to reinstall everything?
~is my internet being slow?
~am I not hungry today?
~do I not have any money in my account?
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~do I give driving lessons to other drivers, including myself, while driving?
~was I chasing the sun down today?
~did the sun win?
~did Jessyca not meet me at the beach?
~didn't her phone ring when I called her?
~was I driving 30 miles out of my way to get to her house?
~am I not a professional dancer?
~is my paper not finished yet?

Ok, I'm done with the Why Wednesday...it sounds too much like I'm whining. I'm trying not to whine anymore.

This guy, Adrine, talked to me today after our CINE 125 class. He's really cool. He knows more about the technical side of film and I know more about the directoral side. I kinda hope we get put on the same team. He seems like he would be fun to work with. Anyway, when we parted ways we went for the handshake but then he initiated a hug, saying something about being a hugger or something. But not wierd, totally sincere, it was really sweet. Made my day. In fact that was my HIGH for the day.
My LOW was missing the sunset. I tried to hard to get there before, but the marine layer out there on the horizon hid the sunset from my view, Lame.

That's it today, I'm tired, I'm going home, I want to sleep next to my kitty.

Another Mundane Tuesday

2005-09-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

http://www.claybennett.com/pages/great_debate.html

Today was a day full of school and home.

No, seriously, with one, one errand in between:

7:10am~Write for Eng 202 class and Print doc

8:25am~Drive to school

9:00am~Sit through Eng 202 class

10:45am~Drive back home

11:15am~Cook and Eat lunch

12:00pm~Nap

1:00pm~Attempt to start and finish impromptu 3x5 cards

2:15pm~Drive back to school, I'm already late

2:30pm~Sit through Speech/Debate

4:25pm~Leave early/Drive back home

4:45pm~Call seamstress

5:00pm~Drive to seamstress and get dress altered

5:15pm~Watch "Beautiful People"

6:30pm~Drive to meet Debate Team for dinner at Panera Bread

8:00pm~Drive to team members house for practice

8:15pm~Debate

10:00pm~Arrive home to post here

See, school and home and a lot of driving everywhere. This is not conserving my gas or my pocketbook. Oh well, can't change today, I'll change the future instead.

<--today's soundtrack:

He's amazing, really. And hot. But that is beside the point. Actually, is he hot because he's amazing or amazing because he's hot? Hmmm, what makes a man...errrr...person attractive?

Also, he's difficult to sing with when you don't know all the words yet, he's difficult to sing with when you do sometimes too. Who knew people can sing that fast and still be singing...wow. Like I said, amazing.

"Jason, will you be my date to Ma'J's wedding?"

I really like my debate team. They are a great group of people and I think getting to know them this year will be pretty interesting. I use that word because in any group drama eventually forms, although, so far we don't see any. Which is a good sign.

I debated tonight for the first time ever. Well not ever, Ben and I have been debating for 8 years, but this was my first formal debate.

today's compliment: "Oh my God! Hell yea!!" ~Asst Student Coach, Jason in reference to just watching four novice debaters fight it out for the first time.

It felt really good to get the first attempt out of the way. Now I don't feel so self-conscious and I know I can do this, 'cause well, I just did. I might even be good at it. I look forward to honing my debating skills. All you that like to debate/argue with me, look out, I'm about to get way better!!!!

"This is the written account of Adam's Line"~Gen 5:1

2005-09-05T12:27:00.000-07:00

The other day I went onto my friend Adam's web-log-page. Simply because it's not part of blogger so I don't visit it regularly and he had given me the link when he first started it. So I was reading through it and came across a few posts about me...

"I also had a very long and interesting conversation with Jenni, imo the best conversation we've had online, i think i finally broached a subject she was mildly interested in, morality of this world and how Christianity comes into play." ~ July 25th, 2005 (Hate on Mondays)

"So i introduced Jenni to Robot Chicken, and, weirdly enough, started feeling uncomfortable about christian-specific humour, ie: the Noah's Arc sketch about "God hates freaks". I don't really know where the concern is coming from, but mainly i don't know what i should do about it - - and i think that's what i'm really thinking about.
An Adam from 3 years ago would take Jenni under his wing as a pet project to explore the wonderful world of atheism - - now, i'd rather just not worry or think about it and let her do her thing, i wonder if that's from maturity or laziness? Hrm. Continues on with my current theme of anti-drama, so i'm not complaining." ~ Just plain ole' Thursday Friday July 29, 2005

"My d&d game is finally working in my head, and i've decided to let go of jenni & her brother, in the end it's the simplest solution for me. The game has a plan and direction now, so it will be reconvening soon." ~ Lazy/Busy Wednesday August 24, 2005

Adam:
I've quoted you here because your thoughts are now public domain. I'm also going to leave a link so people can check my accuracy and see you from your own perspective too. As a friend you deserve that. I'm posting about this because I'm not quite sure how I feel or how I think I should feel about these posts, so I'm exploring. When I first read them I was giving you the benefit of the doubt that you would let me know on your own that my bro and I have been let go from the game, but so far that hasn't happened. Still, no hard feelings here, it just would be nice to be told up front, not from a post.
http://www.xyrth.com/me/

So, yea. What do I think about this? Truth is I'm not sure. Initial reaction didn't feel so hot, emotionally I mean. It never feels good to find out that you have been excluded from something. Granted it's just a game, but it's a game I enjoy playing and something that I can connect with my brother on. However, I also recognize that he and I are the outsiders of the group, so it does make sense that we would be the ones to go. Without going into detail, there's been quite a bit of drama in this particular circle, and I played a very small part in it. And Adam, as stated wants to avoid drama.
The atheism thing? Wow, I dunno what to say. People really think that they can deter me from believing in a loving God that has always without a doubt been there for me. To go from understanding that I was created with a purpose in mind to thinking that I just simply exist for no reason. Honestly, who would want to switch over to that belief? The only benefit that I can see from it would be that a person could then live a life in which they no longer have to answer for. That might be compelling to some, but not me.
Am I living my life in a way that I'm making an impact and making people think about what they believe and if it's truely the right/correct belief? I dunno, I don't think there is enough evidence here to come to that kind of conlusion. I am not one to force people to accept what I know to be real simply because I say so, but my hope would be that they would want to find out for themselves before continuing on with there lives as is.

A Be'GRUDGING' Knock Out

2005-09-05T12:01:00.000-07:00

Ok, last night I watched "The Grudge" with Chris, L'J, Ben, and Jessyca...it was great. L'J and I were the only two in the group to have seen it, but were still scared anyway. At one point in time we looked like the shot from "Signs" were everyone is on top of the car and each person is touching the next person in the line up.
Later...I was laying on Jessyca's stomach, 'cause we were scared, and my head was vertical, and Kai decided it would be a great idea if she jumped up on the couch arm rest right at a pivotal scary moment, Jessyca screamed, convulsed in reaction, nailed me in the head with her knee, I felt by brain wobble inside my head, black out, white in, a second to put together what just happened, and then, "owwwwwww, you just knocked me out!"...
Yea...I was knocked out by Jessyca. I can now say that my dad has choked me out, my pastor stuck her finger up my nose, and my sister knocked me out.

My Friday

2005-09-02T23:57:00.000-07:00

I spent today running around doing errands:
~bought Gatsby more of his special diet food from the vet
~visited with Jessyca and Kai at Petco
~got my eyebrows waxed
~went hunting for shoe laces (I'm fixing up the crew t-shirts J. got us from the DMB concert)
~decided I had to go to the Dickies Outlet
~took the long way 'cause I wanted to drive a bit and listen to my cd...singing...
~found the right color for Jessyca's shirt, but not mine, hod to switch to a different kind of shoelace for my t-shirt
~stopped at the tanning salon to see how much it would cost to get rid of my weird Mexico tan lines for Ma'J's wedding
~finally stopped back at home for a quick nap and to feed Gatsby (he was way hungry)
~left for Ma'J's bridal shower...
~at the bridal shower...
If you've never been to one, it's kinda scary and kinda fun all at once. It's fun 'cause hey, we get to embarrass the bride about the honeymoon night and make her open gifts with lingerie, lotions, bath stuff, whatev, and eat yummy food (I got my fill of buffalo wings yea!), and the boring part, play lame games. Although, somehow Jessyca and I both got out right away when playing musical chairs. I blame the trickiness of the song, it had rests in the music that kept psyching you out that the music was being stopped, I think Jess blames the girls for pushing her down to the ground...yea, it can get pretty rough at these things. The scary part, one day...us single girls...will have to have one of these parties thrown for us. JW says she's never getting married just to avoid it. I'd like to elope to avoid it, but that probably would make things even worse.
~Then back home to sleep, early day tomorrow, 45 minute drive at 7am to get my hair done and help Jessyca and Mom find thier dresses for the wedding

<-- Sound track for the day: Which was amazing that I could listen to the whole cd and sing it and enjoy it!!! It has a story...it was a gift from an ex. And our song is track # 11 'Just Wait'. Amazingly, I had absolutely no problem singing that particular track. In fact, I want to learn to play it on the guitar, it's really a beautiful song. (BTW, he's finally moved. And I think I'm handling it quite well.)

Quote of the day: "If you're going through hell, keep going."~ Winston Churchill

HNT #2

2005-09-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

Ok, so about a month ago, I opened my front door onto my toe. How you do that I'm not exactly sure, but it hurt. In fact, I'm pretty sure I used a choice explative when I did it. God forgive me. So when we got back from Mexico (apparently it happened before we went to Mexico) and Mom and I decided to get mani/pedi cures I decided I wanted french paint on my toes. But that didn't cover the bruise I still had, so we tried adding a flower on top of it for cover. But now, as Mel said, the bruise looks like it's the leaves to the flower....kind of I guess...Maybe when you're looking at my toe from up above and far away...not so much when I out my foot on the bed and take a picture of it...this just goes to prove though that ever since grade school I have always had some kind of cut or bruise or sunburn or something, healing on my body at any given time. Hey, that's just the kinda girl I am.

Quote of the Day

2005-08-31T12:27:00.000-07:00

If you know me, you know why this quote is hysterical:
"The saying was 'Marry an older man he's more mature' now the saying is 'men don't mature marry a younger one'"~Finese Mitchell from Premium Blend on Comedy Central
Muaaaaahahaahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

100 Things About Me

2005-08-31T09:19:00.000-07:00

*Ok, so I saw this on someone else's blog and I thought to myself, do I know 100 things about myself? So here goes my attempt. It might take me awhile, so those of you who know me, leave me a post full of hints and if I think it fits, it might just make it onto the list!!*

1) I blame my room on the Second Law of Thermodynamics.

2) My favorite book is "Fahrenheit 451" by Ray Bradbury.

3) My REAL favorite book is "The Outsiders" by SE Hinton.

4) My song is "I'm Sensitive" by Jewell.

5) I love to dance.

6) I want 5 kids; boy~girl~boy~boy~girl.

7) My cat's name is Jay Gatsby VII, after J. Gatsby from "The Great Gatsby" by F. Scott Fitzgerald.

8) I have a crush on at least 1 actor in every movie ever made. (Thanks Mel, this one was great, 'cause it's sooooo true)

9) My ultimate dream is to be a film maker.

10) I've only had 2 sodas a month since January 2000.

11) When I am driving I yell at the other car, not its driver. (Somehow that makes me feel better about yelling...)

12) Things I use too much when posting or IMing: "lol" "!" ";)"

13) My dad once chased me around the house with fingernail clippers and told me he was going to cut my teeth out with them, when Mom got home and I told her the story she said she could hear me screaming from work, and I believed them both, it took me years to figure out why my mom wouldn't come save me from my dad if she could hear me screaming...

14) Once my pastor accidentally stuck her finger up my nose..proving that you can pick your friends nose.

15) My favorite animal is the tiger.

16) Most people think my favorite animal is the frog.

17) Chris is getting me 2 tigers, a white female Bengal named Kitty and an orange male Siberian named Spot.

18) I've been in love once.

19) My heart's been broken 1x in high school and since then 3x by the same guy.

20) The name of my first crush was Jay, it was the first grade, and he was blonde.

21) I hate shaving.

22) I can read 2 languages fluently; English & Music.

23) I currently only like to practice music in a group setting. Playing solo is boring to me, I want the social atmosphere and interaction.

24) I play the flute and piccolo.

25) I attempt to play the piano, guitar, and drums.

26) I sing 1st and 2nd soprano.

27) I am what I call a "process thinker", meaning that I like to take my time before formulating my opinion about something, usually saves me from having to apologize a lot, usually.

28) I get jealous of really witty people, because I have a hard time keeping up, 2 minutes later or that night or the next day my brain says, "oh that would have been the perfect comeback, dang it!"

29) "If people don't either love me or hate me, then I am not doing my job." ~Me

30) I tend to reserve judgment until after first impressions.

31) When I eat, my food never touches my lips.

32) I'm 25 and I sleep with my baby blanket and a stuffed animal.

33) I leave 1/2 drunken water bottles everywhere I go.

34) I also sleep with my books.

35) Fingernail polish chips off my fingers in days, but takes months to come off my toes.

36) I have cute tiny feet (I'm 5'8 and wear size 6-6 1/2 shoes).

37) I have a freckle in the middle of the bottom of my left foot (proving #36).

38) When I am depressed I prefer to sleep the day away.

39) I'm not as tough (tuff) as I make myself out to be.

40) I hate confrontation.

41) I always fall for the boys that don't love me back.

100

*Wow, just typing to 100 took me back to Kindergarten when I counted to 100 for the first time...I needed a little coaching, but I made it through!!!! Yay, go team me!!!!*

Padres

2005-08-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

Jessyca and I went to the Padres game. Caitlin's, my bestfriend who lives in texas, mom got the three of us tickets. It was a good game 'cause we almost won..except Sweeny decided to get a third strike and be the third out at the bottom of the ninth with two bases loaded... Whatev, it was still fun. Cute boys everywhere, getting hit on by the vender guys, fyi they seem to like when skinny girls order chili cheese dogs with onions and jalepenos, little kids a few rows in front of you yelling at the players, the drunk Hollister guy sitting behind us, the drunk dancer guy in front of us, oh yea...and the baseball game! No, really, I love baseball. I just don't do a good job of following it. I need to date a jock, that likes to watch and go to games with his girlfriend. Then maybe I'll be better about keeping up with it. All in all, it was a great day. I'll see if I can get the video up of drunk dancing guy.

HNT #1

2005-08-25T23:26:00.000-07:00

Ok, this is my first HNT. I thought I'd start with my newest scar. Neck surgery number two. Stupid cancer, whatev. I'm free of it now and I have this scar to prove it. Think of it this way, I have a new line to use..."You shoulda seen the other guy"!!!

Back to School

2005-08-25T19:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, it's Thursday. Day three back to school. It's been great today.
So far:
~I made the first intelligent comment in our discussion on our literary work for the first part of this semester, "Brown: The Last Discovery of America" by Richard Rodriguez. It went something like this, "I thought the opening paragraph in his preface was interesting, because as an artist brown is a very difficult color to mix...blah blah blah brown-nosing-comments-here>".
~I noted that the boy sitting catty corner from me had on black tennis one with a white lace and the other with a black lace. That wasn't the wierd part. What was strange was my internal dialogue about how he had the laces on the wrong feet, white symbolizing good should be on the right foot which also sypmbolizes good, and black should beon the left...because both color and side indicate evil. I'm a nerd...I know. I love it.
~Then I met with my individual speech coaches:
Dewi-for PUI and Prose. She thinks that I'm the only one who can pull off a certain prose piece, but there's a scheduling conflict...we'll work it out hopefully. And we chose a topic for the PUI (you splice together segments from different pieces centering around a common theme) about the trend in the abduction and murders of pregnant women. This should be a scary and dark topic, but we're both excited bacuse we want to do something other than the dramatic death or relationship hurts that you see from everyone else.
Chris-for Persuasive. Basically, we need to pick a topic and go from there. He didn't remember me from about a year and a half ago until I jogged it with a swift kick to the head...no, just kidding, I had Fezzic with me and he learned how to jog memories without knocking the guy out first.
~Then debate practice. Nothing is scarrier for me. Being forced to think quick on my feet and in public too. But Brandon and the other guys have been great. And the impossible drills are not so bad once you get started. We did these drills called 'impossible drills'. You have to get up and talk about whatever subject they give you without stopping until they tell you you're done. And then they start correcting your fillers 'umms, errrs, ahhhs...' and also your posture etc. yeafun, let me tell you. But once you get over it, not so bad really.
~now I'm on my way to the Dave Matthews Concert with Jessyca, catch ya'll later and I'll let you know how it was!!!!

A thought & complaining

2005-08-24T10:41:00.000-07:00

So I had this thought...(in reference to the face analyzer peeps)why would they lump Korea and Japanese together, but separate China? This makes no sense to me having grown up in martial arts, More specifically, Tea Kwon Do. If you confuse anyone of Asian decent with any of the other descents you are bound to offend them. I know, I've seen it happen. They don't like it when you mix them up. Well, maybe most people can't tell the difference, it's true, or don't know enough to try and ask politely before assuming where people come from. Whatev, on their behalf, I think it's rude.

Secondly, what the heck is up with the 15 freeway!!! It was 10 something in the morning when I finally merged onto it and thwap...break lights all over the place. And if you don't think they can be blinding during the day, even in Californian sunshine...then you've never experienced So Cali Traffic! Lame. It was never like this before. What are all these people doing? They should be at work already. And why are they stopping? There was no apparent reason. There's no main exit or entrance ramp in that part of town...there was no accident to be rubber necking about...just people who thought it would be funny to slow down in front of me. Well, you all suck rocks...hot ones...boulders!!!

www.faceanalyzer.com

2005-08-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

Jessyca, you suck rocks!....well not really, I say that because I was supposed to be getting ready to come over to your house and then you said I had to check your blog, which is hysterical by the way. But then I got stuck on this face analyzer thingy..geez.

Anyway, it is ludicrous 'cause apparently I am 100% Korean/Japanese. But my celeb match is Jennifer Garner, which cracks me up on so many levels. However, the personality profile doesn't fit me at all. Well maybe a few sentances but otherwise, that is not me. I mean really, "Artists do not interact with you, for they consider you to be a slave of conformity." and I think "Artist types are unrealistic and immature". Really? Wow, I'm going into the wrong profession then!!

Ok, I can't get the stupid link to work so I deleted it, so you will just have to trust me. But here is the website if you want to try it for yourself: www.faceanalyzer.com

They thought he was a gonner, but the cat came back!!

2005-08-22T23:04:00.000-07:00

For those of you still curious about Gatsby...He is now home safe and sound. I guess I just got so into taking care of him that I forgot to post that he is well and doing fine. I had lots of Rx to give him at first and he was very groggy most of the time. But he is now urinating on his own, and now that he is off his meds, in the correct place too, his litter box. Thank God! He's still on his special diet and probably will be for the rest of his 9 lives, although we haven't worked up to dry food yet. That seems to upset his excratory system. You guys like how I use technical jargen? I think it helps it not sound so icky. These pics were taken from my camera phone the day he came home from the vet. He had urine all over him so he got his first bath ever in his lifetime. He was alway indoors all the time and kept himself so clean that I never needed to give him one before. Thankfully he was all drugged up when I gave it to him, otherwise it may have been more of a struggle. As it was I came out unharmed. He now is back to his old self, excepting that he is a little warmer, as in, actually wants to sit and sleep next to me and spend time with me. It's very cute and I think both he and I have relearned how much we mean to eachother. And speaking of which, I haven't been home all day, so I think I will spend a little time with him before I go to bed.

First day back to school tomorrow, I can't wait!!!

Hazzardous Eating

2005-08-21T02:33:00.000-07:00

I HATE NACHOS!!!!!!!
Jess and I went to go see 'Dukes of Hazzard', which was a thooth cracken movie let me just tell you! Literally. Since we were running late andPanera Bread was already closed Jess bought us some nachos. (I bought the tickets) Jess kept laughing cause everytime we started munching on them it was like it was magnified over the speakers or something. Anyway, she must have been too embarrased to wat them because of it cause I as going at them like a starving child...which I kinda was. Then all of a sudden somehting in myn mouth didn't feel right. Yeah, you guessed it, I cracked by back tooth on a nacho....ON A NACHO! How does that happen. I am now 1/4 less a tooth because of these stupid things. Needless to say, I stopped eating them right then and there. And if you think seperating a half eaten crunchy chip from pieces of a cracked tooth in the dark of a movie theater is easy, you're dead wrong. There I was stuck sucking on what could have been chip or one been connected to my molar. If my saliva did it's predigestion process correctly, it was a chip, if nothing happened after a minute, well then, it must calcium and whatever else bones are made of.
And I still don't have dental insurance...lovely.

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High: singing in the car with Jessyca on the way home from the movie

Low: you heard about it, see above

Compliment: third party from Ma'J from Jessyca to me; "Jenni is a really good dancer"

Thanks Jess, that means alot comming from you, cause hey, you are a really good dancer!

What a life I live!...

2005-08-20T02:21:00.000-07:00

Yeah!! I finally got my rootbeer. Just one glass at dinner with the fam though. For all those of you who know me and that I don't drink soda, here's the deal. 2000; my new years resolution was to only drink 2 sodas a month, so it's not that I don't drink soda, it's that I don't drink it as part of my regular diet. Every once in awhile as a treat. Otherwise, SODA IS BAD FOR YOU!!! They use it to clean car parts and medical equipment, etc, gross!!! However, mission accomplished. I can now sleep peacefully tonight.

However, I will sleep peacefully tonight anyway cause what did I accomplish today?....I went to the gym and then went out with Katie and Jessyca country lone dancing. Now, anyone who says that's lame, it's probably because your so stuck on your rocker/pop/punk/whatev style and can't open up to anything not mainstream. Let me just tell you that you are missing out. It's way fun and a much better work out than simple hip hop. I know I've been in better shape but after tonight I know I need to get into better shape! It was a blast.

Jess, I'm glad we finally got to go out dancing together! Sorry that you had to have that guy all over you and trying to take you home. And sorry I got the cute one hitting on me...well, I'm sorta sorry. A little bummed I didn't get my slow dance though. Maybe next time. And we need to work on those mad line dancing skills!!! Next time we won't look so dorky! Or...maybe we will cause we won't have Katie with us next time. I've never seen someone pick up dance like this girl does!

Katie: I'm going to miss you soooo much when you move to Utah. But BYU is such an awesome opportunity for you and I know you've been trying to get in forever. A little distance can't keep two bestfriends apart!

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High: Supreme breakfast croisant and eggroll from Jack in the Box, it always tastes so much better at 2am in the morning after a hard nights dancing!

Low: Mom the nazi-cleaning lady...she's not Mom when she's in that frame of mind...she's the enemy. The only place to hide...in Brent's room...I know, wierd, but I think his door makes you invisible or something...

Compliment: "You're fun to dance with" from the hot guy that was hitting on me tonight.

Rootbeer...

2005-08-19T01:23:00.000-07:00

Ok, so what was the deal tonight! I hardly ever drink soda, but tonight it just seemed fitting, with the Taco Bell that we were eating and everything. But TB doesn't carry Rootbeer...so Jessy and I tried the drug store. No such luck, all they had was diet...what's that, diet rootbeer? Unless I wanted to buy a whole 12 pack, which I would never really drink the whole thing ever and I have only $20 to last the rest of the month. They even called the night manager to look for me, no dice. He was kinda cute for an older guy though. Whatev. The universe simply did not want me drinking Rootbeer tonight. Sux.

But here are some more compliments that I remembered or recently recieved:

~You could easily pass for 19.
~You know your a hottie, duh!
~The camera loves you. You should think about doing a little modeling.
~You have no idea the influence you've had on all the poeple around you. There's a little piece of you in all of them.

What the heck!

2005-08-17T02:37:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh, why is it 0'dark thirty something?!?!?!? How do I do this, get on the internet and start looking something up and think, oh, I should get this done too...and the next thing you know...it's way past your bedtime? But hey, I'm not even sleepy. I blame it on the Tuxedo Mocha that I had with Jessy tonight. Thanks girl! And thanks for the Claim Jumper too, you really lifted my spirits. But don't get mad...I never did practice the guitar tonight...I got stuck on here.

***But everyone check out the 'Stuff I Want' thingy on my sidebar. Awesome isn't?!***

*sending subliminal message* "buy me something!"

Compliments I have recieved recently:

~ I met this girl the otherday that looks just like you, very pretty, you have a twin running arround.

~ I saw something in you Sunday that I have never seen before. I saw the potential for you to be a great leader.

*I will add more as I remember them, it's getting early...

Gatsby

2005-08-09T09:11:00.000-07:00

Sorry I haven't posted yet. I've been home for four days now, you have no idea what can happen in just for days that can try and make you forget all about the last seven. I will be letting you all in on the Mexico trip soon!!! Right now I'm still worried about my cat, school, and a job...
Gatsby, the best male specimen in my life even though feline, was really sick when I returned home on Saturday. I had to take him to the vet yesterday. Poor thing has a blocked urethra and now damaged kidneys. Although I'm believing he will have a complete recovery to full health. Imagine having a catheter and iv for three days...suck. he seems to be doing better today, but we won't know til later. He still won't eat. I get to go visit him and see if he will eat while I am there. Please prat for him and then pray for me 'cause I don't know where all this money is going to come from.

This cat has been with me through everything since graduating from highschool. I don't know what I'd do without him. He needs to get better and he needs to do it soon.

On to Mexico

2005-07-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm off to mexico today. TJ to be exact. I'm on my way to a missions trip through Global Expeditions with the youth group at church, pivotPoint. We will be building houses at a squatters camp. This should be pretty exciting, well, an adventure anyway. I will be keeping a journal and possibly a voice journal on my digital recorder. So if all goes well you will get to read exerpts from my journal and I will post the audio too. Until then, have a great week, love you all!!!!

Catching Up

2005-07-25T08:26:00.000-07:00

Thunderstorms on Friday night. In the middel of the summer. I love it!! The only strange part was enjoying it from the comfort of my car with Ben... I know how that sounds, but we were coming home from a concert near Hollywood and I had fallen asleep (Ben was driving) and woke up in the car with Ben asleep in the drivers seat. Apparently we were both too tired to actually get up and, for me, walk up the driveway into my house and up the stairs to my bed and, for Ben, to get into his own car and drive three blocks to his dad's house and crawl into his bed there, because we slept there until about 6 in the morning.

However, I would not trade the experiencing the storm from my car for anything. Half asleep hearing the rythm of the rain on the tin roof (it's not actually tin, I just thought it sounded more poetic) the random flashes of light and the deep rumblings that shake your insides. Very romantic. And not in the lovey-dovey-warm-fuzzy kinda romantic but the literary kind of romantic, the world is beautiful even when it's not kind of thing.

I am glad that I experienced that before seeing the movie War of the Worlds on Saturday night. I think I might have freaked out a little, imagining large robotic tripods birthing from the ground to zap people and have it raining clothes instead of water droplets.

The concert, Carlos Olmeda was awesome. Shanon, Ben and I drove up with him and few other fans in his van to the location. A chinese food restaurant with a small venue for performing. How strange is it to be sitting there (at the reserved table, we were 'special') eating orange chicken (Ben don't eat the long pepper things, they're hot) and listening to guys playing accoustic folk rock guitar...it doesn't exactly go together...only in the big cities. And of course Carlos sang the song about Michael Krotch, so all the other side of the restaurant heard was a group of people yelling 'mike-krotch', hilarious. The drive was funny too because our trio was the youngest group there. As Ben put it "it's like we're the cousins at a family reunion that are saying 'thank God your here!' no matter how uncool that other cousin might be".

This morning I had a conversation with Ma'J about Ben. Basically she said that I should not make myself so available to him. And she's right. I had already come to that conclussion myself. This last week has been fun and all, but it's not appropriate. He's got a few things going on in his life and I know that I represent stability and comfort to him. As much as I would like to be able to provide that for him, it's no longer my place. I don't want to be that close to him. All we ever do is end up doing is running arround in circles and I'm tired of playing games. Ma'J said again today that she's not saying it's over between me and him 'and if it were ever to work between you two...' Funny, this time I wasn't sitting there hoping that she was right. In fact I was kind of disbelieving that it will happen. I never wanted to be here. I hate giving up on love. But I had to move on with my life eventually.

Yes, I had a choice to give up, but who wants to live their life loving someone that doesn't love them back? I have too many things that I want and/or am suppossed to do with my life to be held back by that. I know that Ben cares about me, Friday night/Saturday morning proved that, but I don't think with him that will ever be enough for me. It hurt in a dissappointing rather than painful way knowing that he was there not because he really loves me but because of his innate male desire to protect me. It's just not the same because everything I do for him is out of the love that I have for him. I have loved him more than I ever knew was possible. I did not know I was even capable of that much depth. But I have to pull away and let him be, for my sake and for his own. So, I vow that todays post will be the last one for a long while about Ben.

Jenni look out the window

2005-07-24T03:39:00.000-07:00

So ya...I was awake for some odd reason, just thinking to myself, why am I awake I just fell asleep...when Jessyca unexpectedly whispered "Jenni look out the window!" Which confused me at first because I didn't have my contacts on and left my glasses at home so I couldn't figure out why she was asking me to look. But I did anyway. What I saw was a big veil of white all over the tree in the front yard and Ma'J's Tahoe and a bunch of little obscure things looking like ants scurrying arround. It took about .5 seconds for me to put 2 and 2 together. We were getting tp'd. Jessy started to open the window and was trying to figure out what to say, suddenly all movement stopped. Jessyca opened her cell phone with it's extreemly bright lcd light that reaches to the moon and back and a few of them took off running, then she held it up to the window and the rest of them flurried off in a blurry line. Two minutes later we were outfront with Ma'J cleaning up the mess that they had left. They pulled the toilet paper through the door handles of the Tahoe, but also went all the way up her neighbors yard. So, now, mission accomplished I get to crawl back into bed. However, I'm having a hard time falling back asleep. Hence the post at 3 something in the morning.

Someone Familiar

2005-07-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

So tonight Ben let me drive his Mustang, his precious Mustang. The only reason I had the guts to ask is because he's planning on selling it.
Anyway, it was a nice ride. I didn't go too fast at first because he was really nervous letting me drive it and made sure I knew that and because I had Shanon and Kyle in the car. But on the ride back from dropping them off, Ben let me kick it up a notch. I took it to about 100mph. It's so nice to drive something that can actually accelerate enough to pass other cars up. I've got to get at least a v6!
Also, Ben had a really bad day today. Two of his kids at work keep causing problems and his supervisor isn't supporting his discipline. Therefore he offered to let me drive the 'kids' (Shanon, I know your 18 now!!) home because he, in his own words, "wanted the company of someone familiar, you know like how sometimes only a hug from me will work for you".
Oh, and he gave me another hug tonight. I'm not quite sure what to think about all this. Especially since I was day dreaming about a conversation with him that basically said that I really wish that he would disappear from my life. Every time I look at him, hear his voice or someone mention his name and I am on some level reminded of the pain of being abandoned, rejected, and betrayed.
Apparently it doesn't matter if I really feel that way or not 'cause it seems that I will always be there for him no matter what I currently think of him. Some might take that as not being 'over him', but I'm not so convinced. I feel that way towards all my ex's. If any of them knocked on my door, I'd be there them. I guess that's what you get for being in love with men. And I mean as the entire gender. Men are just that intriguing.
I met a really fine specimen today. Eddy at the coffee shop. He was beautiful. Jessy was the one to flirt with him though. Why can't I be that bold? Whatev, he turned out to be married anyway. I found the florist for my wedding. Of course I need to have a fiancé first. I came so close once. No dice. Whatev.

Today's:
High-
it's a toss up, you let me know...
a. Ben admitting that he needed me tonight
b. driving the Mustang
c. staying in bed with Shanon all day watching tv
d. Eddy, the really hot guy from the coffee shop
Low-
Getting upset for no reason...stupid thyroid medication that I'm not allowed to take for the next month.
Quote-
"If you punch a shark in the nose they don't like it."
-that was me, followed by the commercial for Mythbusters with the old lady quoting the same myth. Right, I'm an old lady. But apparently, so I heard, I haven't had a chance to experiment for myself, that myth is true.

Coyote Ugly

2005-07-15T00:55:00.000-07:00

So apparently Jessy has a new Coyote Ugly name...so not to be outdone I have to have one now too.

Especially since we are the famous bartenders of the future. I mean really, what guys wouldn't want us to pour them drinks and flirt and be rude and dance on flaming bartops and cut off their ponytails and pour ice on them, or spray them with water, or...well you get the idea if you've seen the movie.

So Jess is 'The Hawaiian Heartbreaker', she gets to be flirty but uninterrested. And I am 'The Cali Darling' and I get to be flirty but coy. Shanon, you have a barname too, but we don't know what state you were born in...your name will be 'The Name-of-Birth-State-Here Wit'. We thought it fit you. You can be flirty but mean.

I think Jessy's on to something...who cares about becoming a film director/producer, or in Shanon's case my person assistant, when we can party at work!! Hey yeah, hot guys here we come!!!!

What am I still doing here?

2005-07-14T13:50:00.000-07:00

Ok...I've been on this computer since I woke up at 8am this morning...how lame. Mom stole my mouse and the little squb on my laptop is just not the same...also, I'm starving. If only I could tear myself away from this cyberworld. Maybe it will help when I start fall classes. August 22nd baby, yeah!
Eng 202 (critical thinking)
RTV 125 (begining video production)
Speech/Debate Team
I can't wait...I'm still a nerd, I know.

Ensign Crusher

2005-07-14T11:55:00.000-07:00

~I was searching for information on how to change my lame blog into a really hip, film director/producer, artist at heart looking blog...when I found this:

http://www.wilwheaton.net/index.php

Oh my God!Oh myGod!Oh my God!Oh my God!Oh my God!Oh my God!

It's Wesley Crusher!!! My very nerdy childhood Crush(er).

~Yes, I was and still am a Trekkie. And proud to be. But only The Next Generation. My brother was the fan of DS9...which is basically daytime soap opera set in a nighttime sci-fi space station.

~The entire family would sit down in the living room every week to watch the episodes together. Seriously, three generations of my family; Grandma and Grandpa Ringle (when available), mom and dad, Brent and Jenni (and occassionally my Uncle Jon, when available); would sit in front of flickering lights from images of the USS Enterprise and listen to the voice of Captain Picard:

"Space, the final fronteer.

These are the voyages of the Startship Enterprise.

It's continuing mission to explore strange new worlds,

to seek out new life and new civilizations,

to boldly go where no one has gone before".

~I used to daydream about living in the Trekkie world and then moving onto the Enterprise and falling in love with ensign Crusher. *sigh* the good old days...But now I can read about the real man, Wil Wheaton, and his *gasp* wife and stepson. Whatev, I'll get over it.

~Just remembering the summers filled with discussions about season finally cliffhangers. What will happen now that Riker has opened fire on the Borg ship? Is Data really dead?...that was the real big one, how can they kill off that character?

Could I be any more geeky?

"Drop it like it's hot"

2005-07-13T11:05:00.000-07:00

So here I am sitting in Jessyca's room while she is at work surfing through the web. So, I thought I might as well write a post.

I had a long conversation with the Hammond parental units last night. I love talking to them. They have alot of insight and wisdom and I really don't want them to move. But at least they will be in Dallas and that happens to be a place I travel to occassionally. Even more so now. Shanon I hope you are feeling better today.

The main topic of our convo was about challenging people and what the right approach to doing it is. Basically the three of us adhere to the train of though that, "People don't care what you know until they know how much you care". This is a statement engraved in my brain. I try to abide by it all times.

Elisa made a comment about how truth can be brutal, but when comming from someone who you know cares about your best interrest it is somehow easier to honestly listen, but from someone who doesn't have a relationship with you, or a good relationship with you, suddenly walls go up and the deffesive mode kicks into full gear.

I'm a back door kind of girl. Alot of my friends are more the bust through the front door kind of people. I admire that, 'cause I usually don't have the tenacity for it. I tend not to be as agressive and confrontational as lets say, Jessyca...j/k Jess, you're awesome. But I find that it works better, at least for me, if I drop a thought out there and then let the person sit on it for awhile. Probally works becuase if it is true then it will show itself so in time. Plus, if I've dropped the thought out there, the person will having it mulling around in their (un)contious. Eventually they will make their own decision about the subject.

I usually don't have to comment on it again. People are smart enough to think for themselves, sometimes they just need a nudge in the direction of where to think. Honeslty, I need this nudge every once in awhile too...well a 2x4 to the head works better sometimes.

Advice of the day: Drop it like it's hot.

Your Summer Anthem is Speed of Sound by Coldplay

2005-07-11T00:35:00.001-07:00

All that noise, and all that sound,

All those places I got found.

And birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

You're out of your mind this summer, in a good way.

What's Your 2005 Summer Anthem?

"Speed Of Sound"

How long before I get in?

Before it starts, before I begin?

How long before you decide?

Before I know what it feels like?

Where To, where do I go?

If you never try, then you'll never know.

How long do I have to climb,

Up on the side of this mountain of mine?

Look up, I look up at night,

Planets are moving at the speed of light.

Climb up, up in the trees,

every chance that you get,is a chance you seize.

How long am I gonna stand,

with my head stuck under the sand?

I'll start before I can stop,

before I see things the right way up.

All that noise, and all that sound,

All those places I got found.

And birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand?

Ideas that you'll never find,

All the inventors could never design.

The buildings that you put up,

Japan and China all lit up.

The sign that I couldn't read,

or a light that I couldn't see,

some things you have to believe,

but others are puzzles, puzzling me.

All that noise, and all that sound,

All those places I got found.

And birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand,

ah when you see it then you'll understand?

All those signs, I knew what they meant.

Some things you can invent.

Some get made, and some get sent,

Ooh?

Birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand,

ah, when you see it then you'll understand?

2005-07-11T00:35:00.000-07:00

Speed Of Sound-Coldplay

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Stupid Charming Boys

2005-07-09T23:12:00.000-07:00

So Monday night Sean was asking me about going into surgery and he caressed the side of my neck with the back of his hand. Looking up into his brown eyes while he did that...I about melted. What is it about that type of guy, you know, the intelligent, highly logical, abrasively honest, smooth talking, beautiful inside and out, that I fall for all the time? They leave me breathless.

Comparitively, Tuesday night I asked Ben to come up to my room before he left the house after the youth meeting. I needed a hug. And that was a rather difficult request because he had previously stated that he was uncomfortable hugging me still. But he did anyway, in fact, held me for a little while. He asked if I was scared. He was the first and only person that I admitted it to. His words of wisdom to me..."If you weren't scared it wouldn't require faith". Strangely enough, it made me feel better.

Two guys, very different and yet very similar to one another. Why me?

Tonight Ben confided in me something that happened to him today...well, more like something that had happened to him but he just found out about...whatev, this isn't about his story. The point is...he confided in me. I suddenly had a sense of loss. I wanted to confide in him..all the things that I have been feeling lately. Shanon and Jessyca are great...but they're not my best friend that I used to have. Mostly I think it's that they are not the person that I will one day 'become one with'. As much as Ben can piss me off right now, I found myself missing him, missing talking to him. He did hug be good-bye tonight.

And Sean? Well, I like him alot. I learned alot about myself in the short time that I've spent with him. I'd love toget to know him more. But he's not interrested in being that guy for me. We're at a point of agreeing to be friends that happen to be attracted to eachother but recognize that our differences are too great. Hence his picking up on girls at the party the other night. He basically shows casual polite disinterrest in me. Sucks.

So, for the male gender in my life, I'm currently stuck between the guy that I no longer want and who doesn't want me and the guy that I wish I could let myself want and who doesen't want me unless it includes being inside my pants too.

Sex *sigh*...it's more annoying to me right now than anything.

I'm trying to be patient...seriously, I am. But according to my girls I am no longer allowed to settle...and that's hard to do when I'm not so sure that a guy that meets my high standards actually exists...

Surgery

2005-07-08T22:53:00.000-07:00

So I have not written about this in my blog yet because I didn't want to dwell on it. But now that the hardest part is over with, I think I'll talk.

I came home after a modified neck dissection surgery. I had cancer in my thyroid at nineteen and now at twenty-five is reared it's ugly head again.

Tuesday I passed the peeing-in-the-cup-test, the not-passing-out-while-drawing-blood test, and the standing-up-straight-for-the-x-ray test. I'm an A student apparently.

They gave me drug this morning that is usually for insomnia...to help make me sleepy. Subsequently, Dr. Bridges, the anasthesiologist, was histerical...or I was just already doped up. Dr. Mazer scolded me for my sunburnt shoulders and I proceeded to tell him about my photo shoot with Keith, Shanon's dad, at Balboa Park...

That was the last thing I remembered before waking up in my private room, thanks to the Hammonds who knew the President of the hospital, and there was all my family...it's good to be loved. I vaguely remembered that Dr. Mazer had asked me to shrug my left shoulder, which I had been able to do.

The surgery was a huge success, he didn't have to mess with any muscle, artery, bone, or nerve that would have caused permanent damage. There was reason to believe that would have been the case. It's amazing what a little faith and prayer can do, God is good.

I've been heeling up quickly. I came home the very next day, they took out the drain at the same time and the only thing is major uncomfortableness in the whole neck area. Everyday is better though, I can't wait to get the stiches out.

I also can't wait to get back to my usual life. Soon hopefully.

"I lub sqcubes, they're my favority"

2005-07-05T01:03:00.000-07:00

Fourth of July 2005...what an interesting day. It started off with a not so joyful roadtrip out to the valley, but I'll leave most of that out. The destionation was not so much fun, but the company on the road always is, thanks Ma'J and Jessy. Somehow all three of us were up at 4:30-5am...amazing. Thanks to Kai I woke up to a puppy on my pillow, barking, and kisses.

The day comenced then with cleaning and breakfast and Bible study...where Jessyca and I couldn't seem to keep the addresses right...whatev. And Chris needs to learn not to eat all of the syrup!!

Long naps from Jess and I were long over due and welcomed...not that we had much choice, our bodies basically told us were would be napping.

N64 Tetris made it's way back into our lives today...hence the title quote, apparently this was also not a day for clear communication. (Thanks to George Lincoln...one of our unknown founding fathers)

Jessyca beat Ben and I at a game of Monopoly with $6,901. We finally just conceeded, because it was getting rediculous.

Papa J's food was cooked and we all enjoyed. The "adults over 30" left to watch the fireworks while the rest of us continued with Tetris. One of the most awesome games ever.

I recieved a phone call from Sean...that was a little strange in itself, and he invited me and any of my good looking female friends to a party. So I took Jessyca with me. About an hour latter we found ourselves following Sean into backwoods territory. The party consisted of a much younger crowd than was exspected. We did run into Abby though, and old friend from back in the day, it was good to see her. So we only knew a handful of people. A few cute guys hit on us. I watched Sean hit on other girls...strange that I was ok with that but still felt a twinge of jealousy over it...again, whatev. Jess and I proceeded to get ready to leave for home when Sean informed us that he and his blonde interest for the night had accidentally let one of the horses out...
I'll find out the ending of that story later I'm sure.

So now back home I'm letting you all in on the endeavors of the day. But Gatsby is getting ansy for me to get into bed and I have an early day...So God Bless All and America Bless God.

"...the more we know God's law,

the clearer it becomes that we aren't obeying it."

Romans 3:20b

Video Game Music

2005-06-29T10:35:00.000-07:00

Ok, thanks to my good old friend Johnny I just had one of the best laughs of my life. You all need to check this out:
http://media.ebaumsworld.com/nintendoacapella.wmv
Let me know what you think!!!
I laughed so hard I cried...
Love ya!!

Ok there's more, from Liam:
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/mariopiano.html
who plays piano like that and with no sheet music?.....

Word or Phrase of the day #001

2005-06-24T23:42:00.000-07:00

"Purple Opalescent"
Say it, it's fun, I promise!!!
Thanks again Jessy, you always have the best quotes!!!

Quote of the Day #001

2005-06-20T23:38:00.000-07:00

"Can you put corn kernels in a bowl and put them in a microwave?"
-Jessyca

Jessy, let me know if this quote is accurate, but really...it's called popcorn.

Land of the Fair

2005-06-16T17:39:00.000-07:00

Ok, last night was one of the most fun adventures I've ever had!! Jessyca, Arlene, and I went to the Land of the Fair.
Arlene, thank you for calling me on to your quest...you are so awesome!!
Jessyca, thanks for always being up for last minute undertakings!!
We didn't arrive until about 6pm that night, so we had about 4 hours to kill per Arlenes last day of finals the following morning.
One crazy ride, a platter of Australian potatoes, and the Ferris Wheel later we three Charlies Angels, or so we were called by the Carnie behind the booth, were on a quest to find the coveted deep fried oreo cookies.
Our quest was interupted by "Shytown Mike". We were offered a free ride on the most giant swing I have ever seen if we could guess the number between 1 and 10 written on his hand. Jessyca; 7, Jenni; 3, Arlene; 5, Jessyca;4...we never guessed to correct number. But apparently we were good looking enough to warrent a free ride anyway. The procession then followed of being harnessed and flirted with by the ride opporators. Jessyca and I rock-paper-scissors for the rip cord, and without really thinking through what it was for. Everytime we thought they were done hoisting us up the 13 stories high ride, we were wrong. Half way up I realized that the rip cord in my hand meant that I had to release us at the top. It's about then that I started freaking out. With my eyes locked on to "'just do it' sunglasses Travis" until he gave me the signal all the while chanting "I can't do this, I can't do this" under my breath. 3-2-1 and I pulled the cord and down we began to fall. The wire didn't reach it's tension point until about 1/3 of the way down. Needless to say the three of us were screaming pretty loud. We drew a crowd. After the initial shock it was an amazing feeling flying through the air like that.
Of corse the carnie guys didn't end it there. They were "fixing" a line while tickling Jessyca's feet, asking me to dinner, and all out flirting when suddenly we realized that the stairs were gone again and we were being hoisted up a second time. This time Jessy got the rip cord. And it began all over again.
My brother has this theory about food, "free" and "hungry" are the best spices ever. I think "free" translates just as easily to experience as well. I don't know that if we had paid to go on this ride if it would have been as amazing.
Finally after excusing my way out of a dinner date with "Shytown Mike" we resumed our quest for the deep fried oreo cookie.
I know they exist because I tasted one once at Spirit West Coast only weeks before. But our quest was doomed to failure before it bagan since apparently I had eaten the last remaining deep fried oreo cookie in the Land of the Fair. We settled for a churro and a cinnamonroll instead.
The quest then ended we began the journey back and arrived home the proverbial year-and-a-day later. And the only proof of our experience found on the pages of this book:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/jenni-ru/sets/463707/
The quest may begin again however...lets say..on June 29th?...

kelvin/thermodynamics

2005-06-14T14:25:00.000-07:00

So I had this new thought the other day about the whole creation vs evolution thing.

Brent was talking about the temperature measurement of kelvin. (I know, we're nerds):

The kelvin (K) temperature scale is an extension of the degree Celsius scale down to absolute zero, a hypothetical temperature characterized by a complete absence of heat energy.

And then I started thinking about the first law of thermodynamics:

Energy can be changed from one form to another, but it cannot be created or destroyed. The total amount of energy and matter in the Universe remains constant, merely changing from one form to another.

I am by no means versed enough to argue any more inteligently on this subject than this. I wonder where the first form of energy came from. This is a kind of "which came first the chicken or the egg" question. In my understanding evolution requires energy, as does everything else in this 'verse. Where do people think this initial energy comes from? Then why is it so different to believe that there is a creator that made everything and gave it life (energy)? It seems like the same level of faith to me either way.

1hundred-7ty-three

2005-05-30T13:36:00.000-07:00

This one's for Jessyca:

173 viruses
173 corrupted files
173 emo moments
173 reasons to play Big Sister
173 reasons to password protect
173 reasons to love Liam
173 reasons to install Norton
173 reasons to love/hate technology

What's My Personality

2005-05-16T11:54:00.000-07:00

Your #1 Match: ENFJ

The Giver
You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #3 Match: ENTJ

The Executive
You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.
You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

Your #4 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver
You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.
You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #5 Match: INFJ

The Protector
You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

What's" Your Personality Type?